Learning to change

Well this isin't a very nice weekend over where I live... Rain, Rain, Rain!

 Oh and by the way: HEY GUYS!

So, I have a feeling the world is going to fall apart because a month ago it was suuuuuuper sunny and hot like summer, and all of a sudden the weather has turned to gloomy cold rainy days! I'm in a dilemma here cause I just bought all my summer clothes and now it's like I can't wear them because it's crappy out!

UGHH. ok I guess it's not that bad, I mean life is life, and mother nature decided to give us disgusting weather for a reason. Perhaps to get me to stay in for a couple of days to finish studying on my photography and getting my stuff all settled, though I don't need a full week of that.... I kind of want to go do a photoshoot during a summery hot day!

But that doesn't stop me! Mouahaha! Yesterday I had a little girl time with one of my really good friends, we met up for lunch at this random little bakery place we have never been and went out to an abandoned castle. Ok she says it was a castle and perhaps it was but now it looks like some weird gangster hide out with graffiti everywhere! It was cool though, we went walking around and I got some really great shots! So proud it gave me a little hope from the really bad weather we've been having! Plus I've been practicing a lot in my portrait shots and getting a lot better, so I'm feeling a lot better confidence wise! Like now I look at my pictures and I see art, and I'm proud cause I'm starting to get a name and such!

I think about my future everyday. I just can't wait to be where I want to be, up there with everyone, having the career I dream of, having the life I dream of! But especially, being proud of what I've become.

I changed a lot this past month, I realized so much and I'm starting to change and be the good person. In the past I was good, but I didin't spend much time trying to be the best person for me, I was always trying to be the best person for someone else, and I realized I should change for myself, not change for someone else.

A month ago, I had no idea what I was doing with my life, I didin't find myself I was a person who tried to help others and not care about myself. Now, I have became a person who still helps others, but I also care about myself and who I want to be.

Now in this lecture what I'm trying to explain is that you should look at yourself, and figure out the kind of person you want to be before going off and doing a bunch of life decisions. Learn to love yourself, learn to change to be able to love yourself. 

After you have yourself figured out, that's when you can start figuring out other people. 

Now here are some photographs from the photoshoot at the castle,

Enjoy,