Hey dudes, I know it has been a while, seriously I've been wanting to write one since last thursday but I just couldn't find inspiration on what to write because I was just so damn busy! Okay well I'm still really busy seriously life is on a roll non stop it's like ''LIFE GIVE ME A DAY OFF WHERE I CAN JUST SLEEP AND EAT JUNK FOOD AND WATCH LOVE MOVIES ON NETFLIX!'' But no. Well at the same time I'm glad because hey I just got my first official contract with Efashionista who is a fashion company who creates fashion events around Canada! So I guess being busy is a good thing. But again like I said before I wanted to write a blog a while back but had no inspiration. And now I do. People now look at me and think I'm fine. That things are pulling together and that everything is turning out how I planned it. It has in a way, of course my fashion photography career is starting to carve and I'm enjoying every second of it, but another part of me is still lost trying to figure out what that one empty space I have in my body is. I have became a much better person throughout the year and honestly, I'm a changed lady! Yes a real lady, who dresses up, acts older than she is, mature, beautiful... But there's something missing. It's hard to think of it because I have an amazing boyfriend, a caring family, friends who will always be there for me no matter what will happen and honestly I'm so grateful for. But yet I feel somewhat as if there is something missing. And now with a lot of thought I figured out finally what's still missing. Well... missing.. I don't know if that's really the word to define it, really it should be ''what's wrong'' and that is because I can't close the door of my past yet. As much as I want to, there's always a part of me that thinks of the past and how much I would go back to change so much... But I can't. But seriously if there's a genius out there that wants to make a shit ton of money I highly suggest they create a time capsule where I can go back and change a part of my past. But then again if that did happen, and I decided to go into my future(AKA now) would it be the same? Maybe... But there are huge chances no. And quite frankly I love the ''NOW'' part of my life. Even tho I'm a machine working 24hours daily on my career and trying to make it somewhere in life I really like it. Maybe I just can't close the door yet because something needs to be said or done. But really it's time that heals the past and makes you shut that door. It's just like a long relationship and then all of a sudden it comes to an end. You feel like it's the end of the world but in reality it's the end of a simple chapter in your life. It takes time to heal and it's probably one of the worst pains you could ever have but everyone goes through with it. Just like the past. So as much I would love to go back and change certain things I can't. I just need some more time to heal and wait for the day where the door fully shuts. Until then, I have an amazing boyfriend who is there every step of the way as well as amazing friends who will always be there through the good and the bad and I'm so thankful for it. Life is hard, and we can't keep beating ourselves up for it. We just have to breathe and take one step at a time and see what life gives us. I believe if you keep thinking positive thoughts and you keep yourself some hope, everything will turn out and the sun will shine a path to your happiness, no matter how hard it is. Enjoy,
Hey dudes!! So I was getting super stoked on the hot weather until I woke up this morning to hail. Yes I did say hail. WHY IS THERE HAIL?! IT'S SUMMER FOR CRYING OUT LOUD! Honestly I wanted to cry a river knowing I would have to wear a big warm sweater with pants and boots going to work today. Oh the other thing? Tomorrow will be my last shift at work at Victoria's Secret! You guys all must be like '' OMG HOW WHAT HAPPENED!???'' Well yeah basically there was a lot of problems at work and I couldn't stand them being somewhat disrespectful that I had to resign my job and try and find something else. I will not go in further details but if curious please msg moi! So yeah life of a poor struggling fashion designer.. How bad can it get right? Okay so now I will have more time to focus on my art and school as I reach for 100% at School(speaking of I just got my spring fashion project back and got a 90%) BOUYA! And now I'm getting ready to do another photo project soon with a girl in my class and lets just hope I do well because I have had a tiring day at work and I just feel like hiding in my covers and falling fast asleep! Now with monday who rolled in and a start of a new week I feel quite fresh and ready to pounce on everything! Seriously, okay I might not have a job anymore (starting tomorrow night) But hey I shouldn't just be sad and mope around feeling sorry for myself. I mean life sucks and shit happens but that shouldn't bring me down so I like to think of it as destiny. Destiny made this happen because it has another plan for me. Perhaps it wanted me to find another better job in which I would love more and be more respected in or perhaps just focus more on school and my career as a photographer! I'm not really sure what Destiny wants for me right now but I know it's for the best of my well being because I have been an amazing person since the last year and I have come along way! Speaking of which last friday we had studio time in which I experienced lightpainting for the first time! I KNOW RIGHT!? SO AWESOME! Seriously I have never had this much fun in my life LEGIT! So here are some pictures of my light painting session last friday hope you enjoy and see you guys soon! :)
Hey dudes!! Well it's finally nice to see summer has arrived with our 20+ degree weather we have been having for the past week and a half now! Although when you come to think of it we never really had a spring! Legit I swear! It was like winter winter winter and then PAFF SUMMER IT'S HOT NO HOODIE OR RAINCOAT TIME IT'S TIME TO WEAR SHORTS AND TANK TOPS AND EAT ICE CREAM AND DRINK SANGRIAS ON PATIOS AND FEEL FOREVER YOUNG! True fact indeed. But other than that my resolution(okay not really my resolution but it seriously felt cool when I wrote that!) is to not get a tan so that I can get a healthy body........ So Last week I literally creamed myself with some SPF 50 and honestly I just realized yesterday as I hoped in the shower I'm starting to tan. SO THAT FAILED MISERABLY! But oh well.. I guess a little tanned can't hurt that much eh? So anyways I had a pretty busy weekend!! Saturday my friend from college and I decided to dress ourselves up super haute couture and walk around Old Port in Montreal and take pictures of each other to practice fashion shots on location and it sounded like a great idea until we got there and one of us had to go pose and people would be watching us as we posed and felt quietly embarrassed. Seriously, then it was my turn to go up and pose with my huge platforms and OMG I was embarrassed with people staring at me and then as I looked to my right some dude took a picture of me with his cell and I swear to god that photo must either be on instagram or FB by now and people making fun of me with it. OH WELL. C'est la vie as I recall it was pretty rewarding later on in the day when we decided to go to Jack Astors and drink a good Sangria with Nachos and salads on a patio. But still that day was intense also thanks to like 30 degree weather making us sweat like pigs and letting our makeup drip down our faces! And then Sunday where I spent most of my day in the studio shooting this quite charming and photogenic young man and then shooting my dear boyfriend for a photo project I have due this week, and I'm not complaining then because we were in a AC studio where it was cold and relaxing (well on my part). And then when that was done some people and I went to chill in a park for the rest of our day just relaxing and enjoying the last hours of the weekend roll by! Now I would be sad about the weekend ending but quite frankly I'm not working at all again this week so I guess I'm still on my ''weekend'' which I will not complain! But then again I miss work terribly and it kind of sucks because I miss seeing my work buddies but hopefully hours will start to roll in soon... At least I hope! Anyways I hope you had a fabulous weekend guys I did, and still am, and here are some pictures from my weekend shoot! Enjoy,
