Feel positive.

Hey dudes,

For me, this is a really crappy day... I've been feeling so low theses days it's incredible!
There's a past event who really troubled me these past few days and I've been keeping them to myself because there's no one to really talk to... 

You know that feeling when you're so low you feel like you're drowning and you can't even feel your heart beat, you feel like you're the only one and no matter how you look at the positive sides you just can't seem to realize how good life is? Yes my friends this is called depression.

Ok, so I got out of a recent depression but I'm in the rising of one, which means I'm kind of out of it but I still have my little down days.

Yes I do think of all the positive stuff, I read a lot of articles about self love (or whatever that Ghandi stuff about meditation stuff is) and I do realize how life is wonderful, but I mean we all have points in our lives where things are on the down side and you need a little help getting over the hurdles!

Oh about meditation.... The other day I was bored and checking out some meditation retreats down in India, it looks pretty cool and yeah I really wanted to do it!! 15 days minimum but then, as I was reading the rest of it I saw ''Must stay in complete silence''. OK. I changed my mind, sure I would love to stay in a retreat for 2 weeks, learning how to meditate open up my soul and do some yoga but not talking for 2 weeks?! ME??!
I would die after a day I think!! So I guess I'm gonna have to let down the retreats in India and sign up for some yoga in my home town.. Ok so yoga isin't totally meditation but it does relieve your soul in a way!

For now I think what I really need is someone to take me out of the house for the day... Go walk around downtown, take some pictures, relax, perhaps longboard, have dinner in a nice restaurant and then sit around a fire roasting smores and stuff! Can someone do that for me ahaha??? :P I have the day off tomorrow! :P wink wink*

Anyways, like you probably stated, I stayed in my room all day though I did go out for an hour with my mom for groceries and stuff cause I needed some air, but here I am again in my room wishing for a miracle. So I looked at my window and saw my dream catcher and started thinking about all the dreams I wish would come true.... Hmmmm dreamy dreamy!!

Anyways I had to take a picture of it so here it is, 

Enjoy and feel positive much love to all and thanks for supporting me xx