Stormy weather doesn't affect hugs

Hey dudes!


So, sometimes you wake up and you realize some days are meant to be bad. For instance I woke up to heavy rain and wind.
It felt like an insane hurricane(like hurricane Katrina) gusting in 1000000000000miles an hour ripping off house tops and taking cows away from fields creating an insane end of war like storm.

Ok.. I might be over reacting but you know me by this time it's what I do! I guess girls just tend to over react over random things. But hey guys, you know you love it ;)

I woke up and just felt like hiding under the covers and staying there forever and ever incognito style and let the world stop for just one moment so I can take my breath. Sadly I worked at 10 so as a good saleswomen I got up, took a shower, applied my amazing makeup to hide my many flaws and grabbed my Starbucks coffee and went out the door to conquer the storm and go to work!

Went well, as I was doing my goals in the sports section considering I never really did work in that section I was pretty amazed! (I'm more of a fashionista bra sexy stylist as I call myself) I love to help women find the perfect combo and know they are leaving with something they can't wait to wear and feel confident!

Although, as I am struggling with the many ''student'' ''art'' people. (Yes I am a photographer AKA. artist, and a student) problems this one occur to me the most: MONEY.

HONESTLY. Why didn't my 6th grade dream come true? Get a money tree?!!
I would just SO NEED ONE AT THE MOMENT. Considering I'm starting another busy semester at my dream photography college! 
Sigh* After knowing I will barely be working next week (thanks to dead season and the economy) I felt like that idea of hiding under my covers forever and ever felt like a good idea! 

So as I did, I got home after work and went straight to my bed. And I am still there now, in my covers writing away my awesome day!
Jealous right? PFFFFFFFT.

After watching a couple of shows of Underemployed (SUPER GOOD SHOW BTW. On MTV, and literally it's almost better than Gossip Girl!) I came to realize that money really isn't that big of an issue.. I mean yeah it kind of defines your destiny and now a days we kind of need it to survive, but I find we take it in too much thought.

For example business people. They wake up every morning, go to work, come home, sleep. Repeat. 
And what do business people think about the most? MONEY. And it's true. Scientifically proven. (Okay, maybe not scientifically but in my mind yes)
I feel like they live for money, they work work work. and work. and work over that.

Maybe not all of them but I remember when I went to NY, I could see all these business people walk fast on their phones rushing to their offices with Starbucks, looking serious and stressed and all that combo in one. Why? Because of money...

When really money should be the least. Money should just be there, but a support. Yes we need money, but we're not necessarily going to die without right? I think of those homeless people out there with nothing at all, and I tell myself, wow. How do they do it? How do they just tell themselves ''C'est la vie'' and just live on without money and the worry of not having any?!

It's amazing, I admire them deeply honestly. I keep telling myself when I become a famous photographer I will be going to Starbucks getting a bunch of coffees and handing them to the homeless who have nothing at all, to brighten their day!

I think the right support we do need to depend on is love. Friendship, is like a gift that god gave us, whoever god is really. And we should be so grateful for it. Today, I had a crappy day. A REALLY CRAPPY ONE. And I had a couple of friends who came up to me and hugged me and supported me. I had friends see my Facebook having a sensation I was having a bad day and called me and texted me to cheer up. 
It felt good. 
I remember my best friend telling me one day many years ago that friends are like the very first stuffed animal you've ever had.
QUOTE, she said( and I remember perfectly): Friends are like the very first stuffy you ever had. They are there since you've met, They give great hugs, even tho sometime in your life you need to get away from them a while they will always be there.

Mine is in my side drawer and whenever I feel sad I pick it up and just look at it and think about what my best friend said. 

Sometime life gets to us, hey I'm still pretty young and I have a lot more in life go through, so I might as well be ready and try and keep positive, as long as I have my amazing friends.

enjoy,

Roses are red... Violets are blue!

Hey dudes!!

So I would of wrote a blog last night but I was just so overly tired that I fell right to sleep at a rocking 11pm! And to be quite honest I don't even know why I would be that tired cause I didn't do that much..
Hair cut.. and then eat, and then work. 
Wow what a productive day! Okay well for my hair die and cut yes it was! Honestly I haven't been in so long so it felt super good to bring back my hair to life and feel pretty again!
I also met a really cool hair stylist who was super interesting and sounded a lot like me. She has a couple of tattoos and seemed super genuine and I loved her right from the start!

So it was a good experience so far from living in the Laval world of things.
Now for photography business: I should officially have my Canon 7D either today or tomorrow.
You never know when Post Canada will arrive and luckily for me I'm not working so I have decided to stay home for half the day to see if it comes.
Seriously I don't want to come home and have a stupid notice on my door saying I have to go pick it up somewhere on the outskirts of Timbuktu! 

So now I'm just relaxing in bed with my Starbucks blend in hand(okay it's not actually in my hand(it was 2 seconds ago) because now I am typing) but you get the point. As I write this awesome randomness of blog I usually write to open your hearts, either laugh or whatever I am doing who is so amazing!

*Coffee sip in delight.

Now as you know Valentines day is around the corner. And it's not that I hate Valentines day(lets be honest every Valentines day I had so far was pretty much retarded) I actually really like it. I find it kind of stupid in a way that it is the day of love, considering we should have a day of love everyday but it is a nice day to make everyone feel special and loved single or not!

I remember when I was in grade school and we use to make Valentines to every one in the class! I loved doing that! I'm actually thinking of doing it again this year hehehehehehehe.
I think February just vibrates in love and all the cute colours, the loved ones going out at night, feeling a little more special then usual it's cute really.

You don't necessarily have to spend(some people will just say oh Valentines is stupid because you have to spend money and crap.. Do you really? no not really.. ) I find Valentines day a way to be super creative and find ways without spending or spending however you find it but to make it thoughtful. 

I just find some people lack of creativity and it sucks cause love isn't about lacking it's about always being on top of things and always being creative.
That is why Artists are so good at it! They love to create new ideas and venture in to every corner of love, etc.


OMG I FEEL LIKE CUPID.

*Coffee sip

So because of the lack of models who want to get shoots done, I have been practicing on myself because I'm dying in inspiration and dying to take pictures! Well no fear, I'm actually doing a boudoir shoot on monday as a Valentines special and on tuesday I might have another one :D !! 
So I decided to take a picture of myself enjoying monday morning coffee.

Honestly, mondays suck, it's the beginning of a new week, we go back to work, we're dead tired of the weekend etc. So having that awesome coffee in the morning is probably our best and most enjoyable moment of them all.
Well for me it is. The coffee lingers in my body and yells out ''WE CAN CONQUER THIS WEEK!''  So Oh how I felt inspired I just had to go out and set up my tripod in my kitchen and take a few frames.

Enjoy,

Up up in the sky

Hey dudes,

Yes as you might of noticed I managed to use my computer skills in changing a bit of the layout etc of my website!
Ha you must think it was pretty hard to do considering I'm a natural blonde and I have 0 intelligence over technological instruments etc. 
It was a hard hard thing to do but I made it happen and I pulled through! I'm actually pretty stoked, I thought I was going to have to call a friend or someone to help me out but ha, my brain is smarter than it looks ;)

Anyways, I am now sitting in my favourite coffee shop (Starbucks) seriously who wouldn't of known! Sipping my Venti Skinny mocha and regretting those two huge chocolate chip cookies I just ate. I love coming to this place with my laptop or book just finding inspiration for my next shoots, or just catching up on some fashion news I haven't had the time to like read and get updated on. (I do have Twitter, but trying to catch up on Twitter is like trying to get out of sinking sand. It's HARD.) 
Well I've never really been caught in sinking sand so I don't really know if it's hard but in my thoughts it would be extremely hard and I would probably just sink right through.

Note to self: Try not to get caught in sinking sand. Ever.

Okay getting far from the subject, just saying I'm sitting in Starbucks and well.. I also love watching people here, either studying, talking. Oh you get the ''coffee dates'' and you can tell exactly by the girls face expression if the girl is interested of if she's in total disgust. 
(The girl I'm looking at now seems kind of disgusted but I don't blame her the guy is being by far: Super odd.)

Why I like looking at people? I really don't know.. It must be the kind of ''family generation activity'' because I know my dad loves to stare at people. He even tells me he finds it interesting in the fact you can analyse their expression and know what they are saying or feeling.

What I like is to look at everyone and know that everyone has a story and a life. One is just stopping by to grab a coffee and catch up on the newspaper and just relaxing considering it is a Sunday night and he wants to relax before the hectic week starts all over again. Or you get the students who are studying like mad, nervous about finals, or just trying to finish their homework as they plunge their heads forward into those huge textbooks or laptops. 

It's just kind of fascinating how we focus so much on our life, when there's other lives right next to us and we have no clue how they are living.
(Okay again, sounds super stalkerish and creepy but it's true.) 
And then you have me right in the middle of it, hiding the world my whole story writing a simple blog that probably no one in this whole entire coffee shop will ever know about.

How interesting isn't it? 
Okay well maybe not for you but it is for me! 
BOOYA. 

Now the picture I'm posting wasn't by my camera.. It's a simple instagram picture I took from my phone on the plane home from Toronto. I felt so inspired but with the odd person I was sitting beside I wasn't sure if I could pull out my huge Cannon and take some frames. 
So I pulled out my little IPhone and took this cute little picture super stoked on the results.
I love to take the plane because it is a childhood memory that always pops in when I'm up up in the sky!
Now I haven't told ANYONE about this so you will feel super special. 

When my grandpa passed away(he was amazing. Really was. Like THE BEST GUY IN THE WORLD HANDS DOWN) well I thought about how good he will be in heaven. So then after that, I wanted to see him so bad, every time I would take the plane I would desperately beg to sit in the window seat to try and find him in heaven(which in my mind heaven was over the clouds and that the airplane would go right through it.) and with the imagination I had I would imagine little angels flying by.

DAD: This is why I loved the window seat when I was younger. 

But you know, I still look out the window whenever I get a chance to sit near it. It reminds me of my childhood fantasies and you never know, maybe I will get a glance of him.

I use to picture him up there sitting in a nice big comfy chair, with Jake(my childhood dog) and Sherman(My first fish). 

I know I'm a weird one, but hey! If I weren't weird I would be a boring person and lets be honest I would rather be a weird person than normal because life in my shoes would be just dull!

So yeah, other than that this picture just makes me think on how one day I will fly off to my actual home. Where would that be? I don't know....
I'm hoping for NY. Oh gosh that would be a dream. For now my home will forever be in Toronto, I guess Montreal is an option considering that's where I live at the moment even though I don't really have my family here and I'm mostly feeling alone.

C'est la vie and now I must go! 
So Enjoy you're night!

friendship

Hey guys!! 

First of all, I would just like to say that things in the fashion photography world are getting a lot better for me! 
Yes indeed, I have met up with an awesome dude that hooked me up with some tickets to go to the Montreal fashion week in February, and he called me up tuesday to go for coffee and discus my future in the fashion industry!
We talked and he is working very hard to get me a good internship during my college year with several photography agencies and fashion events!

I feel so grateful to have found this man, that is giving me this great opportunity and I'm amazed on how much he wanted to help me get to my goal in life: Fashion photographer.

So when I got home so excited I had to tell a bunch of friends(what easier way than to do it on Facebook!) and I would like to thank everyone who encouraged me and congratulated me for this amazing experience. You guys are the best and just that boost from the crowd just makes it seem so much better!

So after that amazing night of awesomeness, I woke up to -40 degrees weather. 
BAM. So much for going up to the hill and taking pictures and riding! 
I felt so lazy just sitting in my bed contemplating if I should go out or not and I finally got my lazy butt up and head out for a run.
Now I never really had a run that was that exciting! Literally, it was SO COLD and people on the street would go buy me in their cars honking horns screaming ''YOU GO GIRL! '' HAHAHAHA. I guess people who have the initiative of running in this kind of temperature deserve some acknowledgement! :P 

After that I just got home and decided to do some yoga and relax and free the mind.
I swear there's something about yoga that just makes you think about yourself and not everything you're thinking about. It's that moment when you're with your body alone, and you just listen to your inner voice that just speaks out! 
It's hard to explain, what I highly suggest is you go try it, sign up for a couple of classes and then when you know how it kind of works do it at home. You will understand where I'm coming from.
It's also a great stress lifter, and great for snowboarding!
Speaking of which if you have time, go on the Burton website in the girls section, they have an article about Yoga and snowboarding and it's actually pretty interesting!

So yeah, and then my car wouldn't start. OBVIOUSLY. and I don't think it's going to start today considering it's -30 now.... And I work.. So I guess I'm going to have to walk to work then! YAY. 

I wouldn't mind only the fact is that it's super cold and I don't have the appropriate boots to walk in the cold. (And I'm poor so as much as I would like to buy some Sorel boots I can't ) 

Oh my god I feel like I'm babbling forever and ever I'm so sorry.
My point of todays blog is that I've been having trouble with friendship lately.
I have great great friends, and great surroundings but sadly there's some of my friends that I feel have a great lack or respect towards me considering I'm trying so hard to be their awesome friend...

It's like one week everything's great we text and everything and then all of a sudden it feels like they turn on me and they become rude and stop texting etc.

And the thing is.. I really don't think I deserve it considering I never really was mean to them.. And it just sucks cause that's when you have to draw the point in seeing if they really care and want to be your friend of if it's just meh, whatever.

Friendships hard to handle. And sometimes other people get in the way and you feel all debalanced and you don't know what to do about it.
I guess it's just like a relationship. You need to take time and see what happens then.
You can't do anything about it as much as you would like to head straight over there and find out what the heck is going on. Sometimes it's best to just keep quiet and one day they will either realize they lost a good friend, or they won't and as much as you want to still be with them , it's destiny in the end that decides.

Like I like to say about love '' You can't make someone fall in love with them'' 

Anyways, I hope you like the thought of the day,
here are some auto-portrait shots of me on my yoga session, 
Enjoy,

Just think

Hey dudes!

Well, in case you didn't know (some people stalk people and some don't. No worries if you feel pointed out, I stalk people also thanks to social media..... eh ) I'm in Toronto for the weekend to visit my family! And it feels great!

I love Toronto so much, we started off by visiting the boat show and let me tell you I'm destined in buying a 2.5million dollar yaght.. Okay well once I become a famous photographer that is, I will call Rick Ross to come aboard and rap and have some babes just chill there while I'm there sipping Crystal Champagne with cheese and a baguette(even if I don't eat bread).. Alright I'm totally dreaming but oh well..

NO BUT SERIOUSLY HOW GREAT WOULD THAT BE?! Hahahaha, yeah the boat show was pretty gnarly not to mention I actually got the chance to meet some sick wakeboarding dudes and wakeboarded on the largest indoor fake lake! Yeah now that's definitely YOLO hahahahahaha!
Dude I hate when people say that but oh well I mock it anyways and use it...
That's cause I'm cool but there's no use in saying this because you guys all know!

Again, I'm in a total jokingly kind of mood right now, but hey who cares right?! 
Anyways after the boat show I ended up playing with my new restaurant app on my Iphone and found a super cool Korean grill dinner place and it was AMAZING! 
I swear to god this restaurant is worth hitting up, amazing food!

But then after I walked around and it was amazing being back to my city walking around taking night shots of the city, watching people hurry around living their lives and just watching the city life.
I think that's one of the things photographers do, just be in the middle of an amazing place and just watch life go buy as you try and capture what inspires you and tells you more about life.

I haven't been feeling too well back home and just being away to a place I know like the back of my hand and being with people I love and know so well just makes it feel so much better and in other words breathable.
I mean sure I know so many people in Montreal, and I like the city and my friends, but no one knows how it feels to be alone without family around you. 
As soon as I lay my feet in Toronto I get calls from family who want to see me and I know I feel really loved in the way I want it. Even just walking in the street talking to random people I feel homy! 

Speaking of which, While I was walking in the streets I met Jim. Jim was a homeless man who had a charming smile and seemed super nice. What I realized was while we were talking to him he had a shine going on. I find too many people don't realize how many homeless unlucky people we have and don't treat them like real human beings.
These people are people, just like us and they are going through a ruff patch.
I feel sorry for them, but in the end sometimes I would like to be like them, like Jim... Because they are so much stronger than anyone else, they have so much more power and positive thoughts and that's all what really matters.

When I see homeless people like Jim, I think of how some people have the hardest lives but manage to pull through.
I mean like.... People get so sad or mad sometimes when they really shouldn't... I mean like... Think of the homeless that have nothing.. LITERALLY NOTHING. They manage to smile and live. So why do we get sad over stupid things or get mad over the littlest things? We shouldn't, we should be grateful and be happy for what we have because some people (like Jim) would much better go through a hard breakup then live on the street and worry about what you're going to eat for the next week, or shelter etc.

I think people are starting to get to materialized.. And yes I am also materialize, for example I would be dead without my camera etc. it's who I am, but ....... I shouldn't.

It's just like the Buddhist. They learn to not get attached to anything because love is the key of happiness, no one should be materialized.

Thinking back I wish sometimes I would of been brought up like that to understand more yet c'est la vie!

So I'm not trying to make a point (ok maybe a slight point) but I'm just saying how I feel and how I think not many people realize how many are living happy in total nothingness.
So here are some city shots I took,

Enjoy,

Resolutions

Hey dudes,

it has been a while, it has been a while...,

New years so far: total success,

Okay well partly but career wise oh yeah ;)
I told myself if I got accepted in this private photography college this will be my year and guess what: I GOT IN! 
Cause I rock!
I guess the whole purpose of living a good lifestyle and wanting to move up in life to live your dreams you have to keep telling yourself you're going to be the best.
Although you can't just say you're going to be the best, you have to work your way up to it and act like it!
I found as soon as someone would ask me ''do you think as a photographer you will go far?'' I tell them (without being snobby) ''Yes, I believe I will become very successful and try to be the best of the very best!'' 
You need to give yourself some positive thinking to go far, because you need to believe in yourself before working for it. 
If you don't believe in yourself well then.... I'm afraid you're not hungry enough to reach your dream!

So maybe acting positive will be my new resolution for this year but I have two more: Taking chances and eating healthy.
(Who knows how long eating healthy will last, I bought some soy milk, veges and fruit. NO cookies or chocolate and quite frankly I feel like I'm in serious need of sugar)
But I did read in an article from a Vogue editor that the beginning of a healthy lifestyle is the hardest, then you get use to it and it becomes a daily routine. 

So hopefully I get by soon enough I will just have to endure this craving a bit more.

FAR FROM THE SUBJECT. 
Lets get back to reality,

oh before I wanted to tell you guys I watched Django unleashed. AND OH MY GOD WHAT A MOVIE. 
It is a great movie, explains a lot how the world use to be when they used africans in slavery, but with a touch of humour to lighten the movie a bit.
I practically died laughing when Django pulls out his gun and starts shooting and then you here Rick Ross raping away..... Considering throughout the whole movie it was that kind of old music and lets just say Rick Ross didn't really fit in..


ANYWAYS, I had to bring it up sorry if you haven't seen it it's worth watching and I'm sure their going to win some Oscars.

Now the past week I've been up north at Mont Saint-Sauveur taking pictures and recently they had their first Samedi Insomniaque. What is that? It happens once a month, when the hill opens until midnight. They have plenty of activities, and it was a great night because the conditions were great, a lot of good people to hang with and everyone was in high spirits!
So here are some photos from last night hope you enjoy,

New Year, New beginning

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL YOU DUDES ON THE PLANET.
and dudettes.

Hope you guys had a sick night last night as to me, well I probably did considering the fact I barely remember what was happening last night!

I remember going to montreal with a friend, yelling out the car window ''KONITCHIWA , SIONARA'' to everyone who was passing by, and then I woke up the next morning not understanding life.

Oh goodness how hangovers suck.


But I got to admit I had a pretty good time to celebrate the end of the year. As I look back to 2012, a lot has happened!
For instance I had a nasty breakup, a big hurtful fight towards an ex friend that pretty much killed me, moving out of my house because of huge personal problems, getting into a car accident, having my bank card declined, crying, having to give up many important things such as my dog etc.

But through all those bad moments I sure had some great ones: I went to Whistler, TWICE., got to snowboard daily with amazing people, spent my summer with amazing people, had the opportunity to be a photographer for MSSI for the new 2012, 2013 season, getting my new 70-200mm zoom lens, finding an amazing apartment, having the best job with the best employees, etc etc.

But it was time for this year to end quite frankly I was getting annoyed always living in 2012.
So I'm welcoming 2013 with big hands, and for some reason I have a feeling this is going to be my year!
I've been working so hard to get big into photography and I have a slight feeling this year is going to open many opportunities and doors for me in that amazing passionate field I love so tenderly!

So today I drove up north to Mont Saint-Sauveur to take some photos for the New Year! 
(Alright it was super painful to drive while having a massive hangover and getting there by 1 to shoot, but it was all worth it)
Riding on the first day of the new year isin't that different than riding any other day but just the fact that we are in a new year and the day before we weren't just makes it thrilling I guess!
So here are some photos from today hopefully you enjoy them,
And I wanted to wish you all for a wonderful new years, wishing you all the best and thanks guys for supporting me through everything and helping me reach my dream! 

Enjoy,