Hey dudes, Thank god I have a blog to help clear out my emotions. WHAT WOULD I DO WITHOUT YOU?!!! sigh* No seriously, FACT. I'm having a really bad day. Seriously, okay I know in Africa poor kids go weeks without food I get it but yes I can also have a bad day and I sometimes just feel like spilling out my emotions onto the web into a blog to help me cope with whatever feeling has been keeping me up inside. PAM. It all started with school today. Yes School. Oh dear. I still have those mixed photography feelings in knowing if I'm going to go far or not in life. I think every artist has those moments and honestly it sucks so bad cause like you get all worried and crap and it just makes you depressed and you just want to eat chocolate but the chocolate makes you fat so then you get depressed cause you're getting fat so then yeah.. It's a vicious circle. The other thing is I've been just so alone these days I feel a part from the group... Walking around with my July Vogue issue just reading it and just yeah. Being a loner basically. BUT IT WILL CHANGE NO WORRIES I AM AFTER ALL ALEXANDRA THE GREAT LADY WHO SPEAKS ALL THE TIME AND LOVES TO SOCIALIZE. I so just said that. So yeah that happened, then I go to my boyfriend in which he was waiting for his cousin and I didn't feel like staying t'il 9 at night at his place (Well face it I was completely starving and I just wanted to eat and get into pjs) I left all my stuff at his place and took the metro home. Well I believe that was a bad idea considering I fainted, fell on my head and instead of someone helping me up(seriously I can't believe no one helped me) a dude came in and stole the only 5$ I had in my hand for the bus. ( YES. because that morning I left my car at home cause my boyfriend drove me to the metro so I got 5$ to bus it home) SO YEAH. I had to walk from the metro to my place in pouring rain and not to mention I puked on the sidewalk(SHHH no one saw I hid behind a bush) blehhh gross I know eh?! GOT HOME. Good. Well... Not so good because then well.. I had plans and the washed away and now my head is killing me I feel lonely, I'm sick and it's a friday night and to be quite honest I just wished someone would just come over or call me just to talk.. But hey it's okay because I know that it's life and some days are going to pour more than others and some you just wish would never happen but then if no bad days ever come how would you truly be grateful about the good days you have?! (I'm sorry if you have trouble with my writing tonight my head is in excruciating pain so it's kind of hard hahaha) But you know, you're smart so you will understand right?(I hope) Enjoy,
Hey dudes!! TGIF!!! (Thank God It's Friday) For the ones who can't understand the letter things. Oh it's so girl talk oh em gee!! HAHAHA, okay so you probably guessed yes, yes yes there is a bottle of wine opened next to me on my little coffee table in the living room. The funny thing is I'm still at my first glass so it's not like I'm even close to being a little tipsy yet so! Wait t'il the end of the blog and we will see about that! (JKS!!!) No but seriously, when you pick just the right wine (one of my favourites) in case you want to give me a gift one day it's called ''C'est la vie'' it's a Syrah Rosé from France!! Oui oui la france!! Si si , Okay the ''Si si'' is so spanish but it totally fits with the whole France thing! ''Alcohol slowly kicking in'' So I hope you guys had a good week! Oh I had a tuff one I swear like 3 exams, a photo presentation etc etc. I had a feeling it would never end but Hourrah! It did! Beside the fact that I'm nervous about getting the results back(seriously I studied well and I think I did well but you never know, usually when you feel like you did really well it ends up that you failed but I really doubt I failed and I can't fail anyways cause I need to pass cause this is my life, my passion! DUH ) And then it's Friday! And you probably think ''Oh my god how sad that a lady just sits at home with wine writing a blog... Doesn't she have a life?!'' Okay well first of all, yes I do have a life, I breathe eat sleep. That means I'm living, and secondly sometimes it just feels good to stay home. Even if I've been staying home too long it's life again and what can I say I've been so caught up with photography that I haven't really had the chance to actually go out.... BUT, it is Saint-Jean this weekend, which is Quebec's birthday celebration which means the whole province is going to be in an insane party which means I will go out and have fun! ( I hope) (If not then I seriously do have issues) FACT. I will :) But yeah ANYWAYS, a part from that fact I just wanted to talk about my shoot I did wednesday with a beautiful model! She's one of the closest friends I have! (If she is reading this she is probably thinking oh my god ... ) HAHA, okay maybe not but anyways :P No but seriously, she is someone who is truly remarkable! She knows how much I love fashion photography and the best thing about her is she believes in me. And most of all, she will be the one person in which never ''ditched'' or showed up with nothing at the shoots. Like she will always make herself look a 100% perfect for the shoot even if she has a million things to do or if it was last minute. And I worship her for that because I never had any of my friends arrive with everything perfectly without complaint or anything and be happy about shooting. And that's hard to find! Plus she's so nice and she has a very pretty personality! This is why we aimed for an editorial shoot in which I wanted to do a ''dark'' shoot and play with it. She is blonde, and very delicate and I wanted to show a darker side and mix the both together in which we get ''Dark Angel''. I'm very proud of this shoot because in the little time we had I was able to to shoot extraordinary images and get exactly what I want and for that I'm thrilled! I hope you like them too and you can view all rest of them on my FB page: Alex C.D photography, Anyways Enjoy,
Hey dudes!! Well hope you are enjoying a good tuesday, on my part it's a pretty boring one! Okay so I needed a nice lazy day because last week was a very busy and tiring week not to mention this past weekend! And well for this week starting tomorrow it will be pretty busy with a studio fashion editorial shoot tomorrow, a fashion project presentation and friday a still life exam shoot! YAY! Ok so honestly I'm the kind of lady who loves to be always busy and this is why today I feel lazy and bored because I litterally had nothing to do. Starting at 8 this morning when I woke up and told myself ''OMG I NEED TO GET UP AND READY!'' Honestly this happens all the time. If I stay in bed til 11 or 12 I will get randomly depressed in thinking I wasted my day and that I should be productive. Well waking up at 12 today would of been really good for me cause I need some sleep but I guess it didn't happen. Instead I got up, did my workout with some yoga, cleaned my apartment and then went to Winners to buy a fruit bowl and Davids Tea for some tea and a tea tumblr. So far it was productive until I only realized it was 1pm and I got home and didn't know what to do.... So I sat on my deck, which was okay but again boring for my soul as I finished my entire Harper's Bazaar magazine! But hey we all need lazy days and right now I'm just sitting on my bed writing a blog with a peel mask on my face and some of my new tea on my bedside table just enjoying the beautiful jazz music playing from my speakers. Oh yeah I'm totally relaxed a part from the fact I desperately need a good therapeutic massage to take away all those nasty knots in my back! One good thing is summer seems to be finally starting! Seriously, I can't wait for the nice 30 degrees weather, wearing tank tops and swimming. Obviously to try on my new bikini duh! Hahaha, But anyways, Now the photos I have below are from one of my shoots I did last week. I wanted to do some kind of a editorial shoot, very basic but fun and different. I also tried out the grey backdrop because I never tried it before and to be honest I love it. I find it so much better than the white and black because I find it gives a better pop with the clothes the models wear!! I just gave a normal lighting also so nothing special with the lighting. I just love photography and I honestly can't wait to be able to get real fashion campaign contracts and to be able to do editorials for magazines I love such as Vogue, Bazaar, Elle etc. ! And to be able to meet amazing people in the industry and to work with some of the best models! One day one day, I just got to keep practicing and I will get it! Thanks to everyone for supporting me so far, this is a long journey but it's worth it, and with everyone who is there cheering me on just boosts me up and helps me reach my dream! Dream on! Enjoy,
Note to self: Call Bell to try and understand how this high speed internet is high speed... I feel as if it was turtle slow. Note to self again: Try and find a good massage place to get a massage because my back is dying and taking it with me. Hi dudes! I hope all is good, it's getting a lot better this week considering I had a pretty hard week last week! (I totally said week like a lot!) Oh well deal with it. Anyways, as last week rolled in I got a very worried call from my father saying my grandma was very ill and was going into a life threatening surgery the same night and that it was very urgent. Scared and worried as I was I cried a river and drove with my amazing boyfriend from Montreal to London Ontario(A total of 8 hours) To go visit her and make sure she was going to be alright. She survived surgery which was pretty amazing, and now she is recovering at the hospital. (From missing a week already of school I came back two days ago to go to school but heading back out there saturday to visit her.) I realized after going through an event like that how life was short. Life is something so delicate, it really is... It's delicate and wonderful! Life is wonderful! Honestly it is, I mean it's magical to be able to breathe and be a person. We are all someone who means a lot to other people and to life. I thought I was going to loose my grandma and I was terrified because I loved her so much and so do many people. If she passed away that night so many hearts would be crushed, and I couldn't bare think of that. Life is so magical and important. People don't realize it, and I didn't realize it until this happened. (Okay I did but this really did touch me to make me rethink again.) I find we watch too many violent movies where people kill other people so easily like it was nothing, and then we put ourselves ''Life can't be that fragile'' until it actually happens. Maybe that's why we hear about murders every day now. People don't seem to understand that killing someone is killing many people at the same time. It's destroying life and destroying the one true thing we still have on this planet. Anyways that's how I feel and it's just to say how glad I am to find my sweet grandma safe and recovery from surgery! Although she is complaining deeply about the hospital food(she's a cook) She is eating, and that's good news! Now other than that I need to get back to photography and start getting my head back to the world of fashion! Yes indeed the photos from below are from yesterdays shoot I did with a lovely lady to get myself back into photography! Lovely photos and I sure am proud of them! Sometimes when you get all shooken up from an event it's good to just go back to doing something you love to do to make you heal from the inside and get back to the normal life! And then today I finished up a couple of photo projects and greatly spent the day with a really good friend from school! And then I got amazing news on how I will be shooting one of the winners from the show The Face hosted by Coco Rocha! BOUYA YEAH AWESOME I KNOW RIGHT?! Okay so it's not a contract it's a test shoot but it is pretty amazing to be honest I'm so excited! So yeah, all my photography is coming together slowly but surely, and with all these anxiety cries I get of being a struggling artist who wants to just so desperately make it in the fashion world I think I'm doing good so far! Enjoy,
