Thank god I have a blog to help clear out my emotions.
WHAT WOULD I DO WITHOUT YOU?!!! sigh*
No seriously,
FACT. I'm having a really bad day. Seriously, okay I know in Africa poor kids go weeks without food I get it but yes I can also have a bad day and I sometimes just feel like spilling out my emotions onto the web into a blog to help me cope with whatever feeling has been keeping me up inside.
PAM.
It all started with school today. Yes School. Oh dear.
I still have those mixed photography feelings in knowing if I'm going to go far or not in life. I think every artist has those moments and honestly it sucks so bad cause like you get all worried and crap and it just makes you depressed and you just want to eat chocolate but the chocolate makes you fat so then you get depressed cause you're getting fat so then yeah.. It's a vicious circle. The other thing is I've been just so alone these days I feel a part from the group... Walking around with my July Vogue issue just reading it and just yeah. Being a loner basically. BUT IT WILL CHANGE NO WORRIES I AM AFTER ALL ALEXANDRA THE GREAT LADY WHO SPEAKS ALL THE TIME AND LOVES TO SOCIALIZE.
I so just said that.
So yeah that happened, then I go to my boyfriend in which he was waiting for his cousin and I didn't feel like staying t'il 9 at night at his place (Well face it I was completely starving and I just wanted to eat and get into pjs) I left all my stuff at his place and took the metro home. Well I believe that was a bad idea considering I fainted, fell on my head and instead of someone helping me up(seriously I can't believe no one helped me) a dude came in and stole the only 5$ I had in my hand for the bus. ( YES. because that morning I left my car at home cause my boyfriend drove me to the metro so I got 5$ to bus it home) SO YEAH. I had to walk from the metro to my place in pouring rain and not to mention I puked on the sidewalk(SHHH no one saw I hid behind a bush) blehhh gross I know eh?!
GOT HOME. Good. Well... Not so good because then well.. I had plans and the washed away and now my head is killing me I feel lonely, I'm sick and it's a friday night and to be quite honest I just wished someone would just come over or call me just to talk..
But hey it's okay because I know that it's life and some days are going to pour more than others and some you just wish would never happen but then if no bad days ever come how would you truly be grateful about the good days you have?!
(I'm sorry if you have trouble with my writing tonight my head is in excruciating pain so it's kind of hard hahaha)
But you know, you're smart so you will understand right?(I hope)
Enjoy,
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