Dreams Dreams Dreams

'' The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.'' - Eleanor Roosevelt

I don't know about you but whenever I sit down at my desk and I need to write some kind of essay in class I love starting by a quote that fits with what I'm about to write.
I don't know why exactly but it gives me some kind of emotion to write about, it makes me wonder and express myself. 

So what better way than to start up this topic with one of Eleanor Roosevelt's quotes!
Dreams come in many forms. Either it's a career path, a passion, a journey, love, family and the list just keeps going and going......
The crazy thing is that dreams change, as you change and sometimes it hurts for some people, a lot. But then again sometimes you realize who you really are!
And then there's the times when you finally reach your dream but then you're too scared to go forward so you freeze in that one livid spot not knowing what to do.
Honestly for people who actually got to that part I wish I could tell you something to help you get by it but I've never actually been there yet so I don't really know how it exactly feels.
So I'm sorry to not help you out in other way! :P
But I can give you advise. Ask yourself if that's what you really want. And then ask yourself in 5 years will you be happy or not. Cause it's all about you obviously, it's your dream yet again you might think it's your dream but in reality it's not your chosen dream. 
K. Alex miss spychologist slash philosopher (I literally did refer to ''Slash'' because I'm typing on my new mac and I honestly can't find the slash button anywhere so bare with me on this sunday morning I'm having this one on one time with this Apple dude to learn more  about this amazing piece of technology hahaha) ANYWAYS.
But about the other kind of dreams I'm more able to help. Or at least feel what you are feeling.
I mean for me my biggest dream is to become a photographer, a famous one.. Ok not necessary famous, but I mean in a way that people know me and can refer me as an amazing photographer.
I want to be able to create art with my camera and to prove to the world I can be a true artist.
I think that's my dream, of course you never know until you're like 50 and you tell yourself ''ah crap. That's what I've always wanted to be or whatever '' Yet again, even at 50 when you realize what you're real dream was, you can always do it. Like I said, anythings poooooosssssssiiiiiiibbbbbbllllllleeee!

Now I'm going to confess about something. There is one thing I have had on my mind for a long time wondering why the hell am I thinking about it! Legit.
But it has to do with dreams.
When I was with my ex (I hate saying the word ex... Like I don't even know what that means.. So lets say.... hmmm ... The last love I have loved. ) HAHAHA WTF . 

ANYWAYS . Well... I have to admit I love him. I always will I mean when you love someone you don't just unlove. You can't say you don't love them if you have loved them. Cause if you loved them you still do. It's like... duhh !
Anyways, we were together for a year and a half and he kept telling me how his dream was to end up with me living somewhere warm in the islands(ok that didin't work out too well because I'm a die hard snowboard junkie and I need snow snow snow! HAHAHA ) But it stuck to me.
I guess the part that hurt the most was that I liked that dream, but yet in the end it was like, I wasn't the girl he wanted to end up with so I was stranded half way to that warm island he was dreaming about with a snowboard in hand.
That's the hurtful part, cause every good thing must come to an end. And then life goes on. I've had other encounters with guys but every time it was getting to the relation part I froze and thought of that dream. 
If I could, I would go back. But I can't. I'm sure I'm not the only one in the world that wants to go back in time! Hahaha!
I guess the present sucks so you'd either want to go back in time or forward to the happily ever ending part to like... See how the story ends!

Anyways, I'm super sick right now, all drugged up with niquil and all those cold medications cause I'm trying to get better for work tomorrow so I better stop rambling before I start writing things I shouldn't be writing hahaha! 
Just one last thought, pursue your dreams, but if there's someone involved and you find out it's not exactly what you want, be gentle on letting it go.

Enjoy,

The Lara Croft way

Hey dudes!

What's up? 
I'm in finals right now in college so I'm pretty stressed out and busy these past weeks but luckily I finish next wednesday!
YEAH. Oh and guess what? I'm typing this with my new macbook pro! Oh yeah I'm that awesome hahahaha!
Indeed, I'm super stoked on my new laptop because it's that simple piece of technology that will help me create better photographs and develop my style, and editing skills!
Other than that I'm super sick... SUCKS. I always get a cold between summer and the beginning of fall and as much as I try to eat right, wear warm clothes and such it never seems to work and I fall sick.
But oh well, that didin't stop me from climbing a huge mountain yesterday in high heels with my camera!
You must be thinking «Damn girl! You rock it! » Hahahahaha!
I'm impressed, even at one point it was so steep I had to crawl up and dag my claws(ok nails I'm just making it seem more interesting) into the dirt/rocks to climb up because my heels were too slippery!
But at last Ms. Lara Croft got up on top of that mountain and what a view!

First thing that popped in my mind was «Wow just in time for sunset! Amazing pictures, god I love the north!»
and then the second thing that popped in my mind « Crap... I have to get down the same way I got up, and if it's sunset that means I'm gonna be climbing down this monstreous mountain in the dark!».
NO FEAR NO FEAR my blackberry flashlight app came in handy and no worries I was with friends so it's not like some alien or warewolf would abduct me!
Climbing that thing gave me sooo many photoshoot ideas! It's crazy how one simple activity can give you so much thought in creating things. But I am an artist so I guess my artistic brain also played a role in my ideas though I'm looking forward in creating one of my ideas soon!

Yesterday was a great day! I got to admit, I got to go play in the outdoors with friends I love so much and taking pictures! It felt good cause lately stress was overwhelming and sometimes we just need some time to relax and get our mind off of things!

Anyways, here are some pictures I took from up there! Enjoy!

Snowboarding defines me

HEY DUDES I'M SO SORRY I HAVEN'T BEEN WRITTING BLOGGS LATELY!

You can full on blame college because I'm in exams right now and stressing like crazy! I just haven't had time to even take pictures and to be honest it's killing me the inside out! Hahaha!

But FINALLY. TODAY. I. TOOK. PICTURES.

Yes I did! I wasn't working today and instead of studying(okay this is really bad I should of really studied today though my camera was looking at me all lonely so I had to craddle it) I went out and drove over to a skatepark to take some photos and then after I met up with my friend to go take some fashion shots around town!

It felt great, and to top it off it was cold today! That means snow is around the corner which means snowboarding season is about to start again! Now I'm stoked about that! Waking up in the morning looking out your window seeing 3ft of fresh snow, spending the day at the hill, coming home to a nice warm bubble bath(or spa if you have one) and relaxing and enjoying the thoughts from your amazing day on the slopes!

It's too good to be true! Alright maybe not for some people who are practically crying over the fact that summer is over and that they hate the cold.... If you really hate it then go move to florida! I hate it when people start whinning over the fact that winter ''sucks''. I love winter, winter is a part of Canada. It's a part of our world, snow is wonderful and don't tell me it's boring! Go put on your snow suit and run out in some fresh pow, make snow angels, make igloos and fool around! It's fun! Way better then rolling around in grass!
And then after you go home sit by a cozy fire drinking hot chocolate! 

Oh and to top it of it's Xmas season which is awesome! 

Okay I'm a little excited right now I got to admit! It's just that snowboarding is a big part of me and it makes me so happy to even think of it and to wait for snowboarding season for me is like a little kid on dec 24th trying to fall alseep to be able to wake up on the 25th and open presents!

Snowboarding defines who I am. Everyone has to be defined by something!
It can be a sport, an art, a pastime! ANYTHING! It's important because then you realize what you really want to be and go in life.  It kind of gives you some direction in life and leads you half way!

Anyways, for today I did two photoshoots! Here is my friend skateboarding, he's really good and PS. Skateboarding defines him!
My second shoot was with my friend and shes gorgeous! We had a blast just trying to find concepts and places around this strange town to take photos! It was great!

The rest of the photos are on my photography page on FB : Alex C.D photography

Enjoy,

Make your own fairy tale

Hey dudes!

Hope you had a great long weekend though mine wasn't really a long weekend considering I had school on labour day.... I know right? Weird! But I guess we needed some catching up to do since we were on strike for 6months..... Don't ask why!

I worked my butt off and had my weekend off which made me relax and spend time with friends I haven't seen in a while! I absolutly love the feeling when you get to hang out with friends you haven't seen in so long and just fool around talk about anything and just spend a good day! We all need days like that and life right now is going beyond great! Sure I haven't found my prince charming and I don't think I will find him anytime soon though I feel really good!

Today at college I wore a cute little white dress with my Victoria Secret scarf and some green vintage pumps and felt superbe! I guess when you dress all nice you have this positive vibe and you feel like you're on top of the world!

I even found myself singing and dancing in my house like a crazy girl in my underwear(not to mention Victoria Secret underwear hehehehe(obviously what else)) and just laughing like a cute little girl not knowing the real world!

PFFT. And my horoscope told me I wasn't suppose to have a great day! Well... Technically everytime I read my horoscope it's never acurate but I read it anyways just like men who read the paper every morning with their coffee. Oh that got me to think I need to go buy a coffee machine! I really don't know why I'm talking to you about my chores and what I need to buy but oh well you guys are reading it and might as well know I need a coffee machine. Oh and that I should go buy one.

Now something stuck to me today in english class(ok not stuck to me like legit but I mean stuck to me in my head). We read the short fairy tale called Bad Girl and we discussed the morals of the story which was: Pursue your dreams. 

I think that's a great moral because not many people actually pursue them. They either think it's retarded, they either think they won't be able to and that it's impossible.

YOU ARE ALL LAZY BUTTS IF YOU THINK THAT!

You can. Remember the phrase ''Anythings possible'' ? Well it's true.... Well, except if you try to whistle underwater without air, holding a big tuna fish and a great white shark in your hands.

But for the rest you can! There is always a way!

But you can't just wish it, like every 11:11 make a wish and hope for the best. No. You need to go out there and work to be able to actually have your dream become reality.

Everyone wants to live in a fairy tale.... Well make it happen! Write your own fairy tale!

Enjoy,

Tired VS. Fashion

Hey dudes!!

Well I was extremely busy with the opening of the new store I work at!
I was practically working everyday full on and now I have the weekend off!

But let me tell you yesterday when I woke up I was sore all over! Hahahahaha!
I'm so happy I found this job, legit it's the best job in the world, the people I work with are amazing, I love interacting with clients and the atmosphere overall is astonishing! Did I mention my bosses are the best bosses in the world? I couldn't ask for anything better I swear! In a matter of fact I'm kind of sad I'm not working today because I was looking forward to it!
But on the other hand I must quite admit it feels good to relax and take some pictures to advance my portfolio!
Indeed, yesterday aside from being extremely tired I showed up at my friends place for a fashion shoot where we left off to some odd town named Saint-Jérome. OK. So odd in the meanings of having really weird people staring at us and walking around creepy looking. But the fun part about this town is that there's so many places to get good pictures so it's easy for our imaginations to run wild!

I really do enjoy fashion photography more than sports because I find there's more of a creative side to it which I love. I get to fully interact with the model and I'm kind of a fashionista in a way! Well, here are some photos we took yesterday and the rest of them are on my photography fan page or on my Tumblr!

Enjoy,

Faith, Love, past.... I miss you?

Hey guys,

When I feel a little sad and lost I tend to like to write how I feel and it makes me open up to myself and really see what I want and such.

I wish my life was like a romantic movie! You know how its going to finish and you know you're going to end up happy and everything will turn out fabulous! Saddly we have to dodge through life wondering who we are, where we are going to end up and with who.

We go through first loves, bad breakups, and in the end you feel so dumb but then you meet someone new and then the whole cycle goes around again.

Ok so you guys get the point of this subject. LOVE. GOD. I HATE IT.

For a while I've been doing great with life but as soon as I got back to college and saw.... him. hmm . Ex? I guess that can be a.... term we can use hahaha well basically I wasn't ready to see him. 

I don't know, I guess my emotions are going all over the place and perhaps it's all in my head but seriously come on! Hahahaha, why can't some prince charming just walk in and give me a flower and wisk me up on his feet and happily ever after? 

Why go through all this pain, hiding it telling yourself you're over them, and that life moves on and you will find someone else? I'm trying to act positive and I really am!
But then there's those moments you're like. Wow . Yes I've changed so much these past few months though why am I still thinking about the past!? 

Past is past, I mean yes the past can come back in the futur but really? Should I really think of that?
Should I really murder the inside of my body thinking some aspects of the past will come back?
No, I shouldn't...

I wonder if scientist will finally create some kind of anti biotic who provides memory lost of certain events so I can be happy and live a care free world like a little puppy trying to catch a fly not knowing the world is so much more!

I have faith though, I'm happy, life is going pretty well. Have great grades, taking lots of pictures, converting my style and starting a dream student job!
One day my prince charming will sweep me away from my feet whoever that person is! 

 When? Who knows, but I can't wait!

Who are you?

Hey dudes!

Well today was my first day back at college since... 6 months ago because of our strike! And let me tell you, when you haven't attended school in that long and then all of a sudden you get back right into it and start pounding into concrete subjects your head kind of hurts and you feel like melting into a puddle of desperation. 

OK. I will admit I'm being a little dramatic but I had classes from 8 to 6 and let me tell you at 6 I was dead.... Again, not actually dead but you know what I mean!

I have to admit it does feel good to be back and see friends I haven't seen in a while, and to be able to learn new things and get back to the average life of a student!

At lunch I just sat there, dozing off of my friends conversation and just looking around me, seeing all these different people and watching them as they hurry through the halls. So many people, all at once.

I felt new in a kind of way even though I'm not. Like if I want to just go up to a group of people and make new friends, but somehow I feel a little shy, so I content myself in just watching them go and then eventually drift back to my friends conversations about everything and nothing.

This all got me to think of who am I? Have you ever asked yourself who you were?

Obviously you are a human, don't be silly, what I'm trying to explain is who are you inside? What do you want to become? I want to become a professionnal photographer, who is sociable, fun to be around, always positive and who is a great lover and friend.

Who am I right now? I am a young lady, struggling to succeed, a dreamer, who is sociable, who is trying to be a 100% positive and who is trying to become a better person, a person who people can trust, love.

I have to say it is kind of hard because I'm still young and haven't really seen the real world.

Up to now I have experienced my childhood years and now I'm finishing up my teenage years. And yes I'm going to admit it, teenage years are crucial. I'm ready for those years to be finished and start up in the adult world. It seems kind of scary in a way but if you think of it all stages in life are scary. 

Anyways enough with the chit chat, in an older blogg I wrote, I explained how my favorite photographer Lara Jade use to use herself as a model to create her photographs to practice with and create cool concepts.

Well I did the same again! It's a weird concept but creativity and originality is one prestigeous quality you must have to become a photographer. 

So yes, you have me sitting in a bath tub looking somewhat adventurous. I look at this picture and honestly I have no idea why but the first thing that pops in my head is: Alice in Wonderland.
Why you may ask?
I don't know, it just seems as if I was in my own world, discovering the confort of a bath tub.... WEIRD. Or wondering how I got there. Like if someone just threw a spell on me and I landed there!
It's up to you on how you feel when you look at this picture. 

Like a lot of people say: « A picture can express a thousand words »
Enjoy,