Happy Holidays!! xx

OMG ONLY 5 DAYS T'IL CHRISTMAS!! 

SAY WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT!!!!!

Yes, only 5 little days until christmas! 
To me it already kind of feels like christmas from the part of being on vacation and having time to actually relax and totally do nothing! 
Ok maybe not just do nothing, but you know what I mean, to just RELAX.

And also vacation time gives me time to like… Focus on my work and prepare for future projects in the near future.
As for my break so far, I actually accomplished a lot that I wanted to do! First off I managed to fit in a test shoot with a model I met at the Griffe Fashion show! Very lovely lady, and very sophisticated and sociable! We braved the -30 degrees weather to go shoot outside in the snow, which was pretty awesome. And our 3hour shoot actually ended up being a 1hour shoot but hey I got the pictures I wanted and honestly, it was FREEZING!

Secondly, I had an interview with this upcoming lifestyle blogger! My first interview ever, so honestly I kind of feel totally awesome and the girl who interviewed me was amazing! She is a brilliant blogger, very warming and easy to become friends with. As soon as she came in, I felt like I knew her over a century and we connect right away. We just started talking and before we knew it I kind of answered all her questions without her really asking any! 
Ok so I like to talk ok? Nothing wrong with that! 

One thing I found kind of funny was when she mentioned my Tumblr. I haven't touched my Tumblr in like… A YEAR!!! Ok maybe a little less but you know what I mean so I decided the following morning to delete my Tumblr and to redo the whole thing in which I did and it is a lot nicer! And now I will commit to keep refreshing it to make it look nice and lady fashion like! 

And then when I finally re created my Tumblr I was like… Ok… I should probably write a blog… SO I'M DOING IT NOW! 

But you guys all kind of know it takes me a while to write blogs, ok so I'm soooo not a writer and I've been busy with myself and my photography that I haven't had the time to actually give myself time to sit down grab the Mac and write one! 

Which is kind of going to be my NY resolution! 
SPEAKING OF NEW YEARS! Yesterday I bought my NY outfit which was kind of inspired from Gossip Girl(Because my first resolution is to be a lady, with a Gossip Girl inspired wardrobe) and thanks to the beautiful staff of Topshop, I found the perfect dress, with the perfect gold accessories to go with it!

HINT: I have a really nice gold headpiece!

So yeah! And thankfully for me I finished all my xmas shopping in November so December I didn't really had to go shopping which is awesome because the mall is jammed packed and don't even mention about finding parking….

So I hope you all have a great holiday! I will be quite busy starting tomorrow in which I am hosting a friend christmas party dinner, and then Tuesday and Wednesday are family time and then leaving on the 27 to the 2nd to Toronto to visit my father and family from down there!
So I will probably be incognito from the blog point of view but I will try to write something in between the holidays!

Just one thing before I let you guys go and wish you all a wonderful christmas:

Have fun, be happy, don't worry about getting fat during the holidays due to the amazing yummy foods you will be indulging. 
Just be happy, thankful and have an amazing holiday with friends and family, and enjoy relaxing and especially, feel amazing!

Enjoy, xx

Oil changes are important because…..?

Another week begins!

Oh and it's my last week of school until holiday break! Which means CHRISTMAS IS ALMOST HERRRRREEEEE! 

So I am quite excited for the holidays, I really do need a break from school, having a few weeks to relax, enjoying christmas holidays with family and friends and to work on personal photography projects! Luckily I have found a few models who are down to shoot some projects with me so I am quite excited to practice during the holidays and to shoot! 

But before I start thinking about the holidays I must endure my last week of school and exams. Oh and work! YES WORK! I am working at a restaurant only for three days (last Saturday, this Friday and Saturday) to help out because they are super busy, which I don't mind because I get some money which I can put away in the bank… And I kind of need it! 

So that's good on my part and this morning I had an oil change for my car! (So not important but honestly I needed it so yes I had to write it in my blog) 

OK SO WHATEVER, THE WHOLE ME TALKING ABOUT GETTING AN OIL CHANGE IS BECAUSE OF THIS:

I woke up this morning in bed (duh) hoping for a huge snow storm. I check the clock and realize oh crap, I am late for my oil change. Look outside. SNOW STORM. HECK YES! 

So yeah, I guess the whole purpose of saying to you guys I had to get an oil change this morning seems suddenly very important to the rest of the blog.

Oh shush.

ANYWAYS, a part from my last blog in which I was feeling pretty down, I told myself this week I will feel more positive and start taking care of myself instead of waiting for others to take care of myself, and quite frankly I feel a lot better and I know I'm going through a ruff time, so it's normal to feel sad, but it's also very important to feel happy! 

And this morning, even if I am slowly recovering from a cold I caught from my dear old boyfriend, and I am tired very very tired, I am happy. And right now that's all what counts!

Enjoy,
xo

Lilo and Stitch

Hey dudes,

TGIF! It's friday finally which means we can go out and party and relax until a new week starts up again! Or maybe you guys can go out…. I will just content myself in staying home again…

I know boring, but hey I'm not really going to randomly go out on my own, like I'm not that super sociable person that can just do that, on the other hand I will look like a loner in a corner. Drunk. And so no I will just content myself to stay home cozy and write a blog.

So Finally! Today is the 29th which means I can publish the Black Sheep Fashion December issue photoshoot I did at the beginning of the month! Super excited cause I've been waiting for like forever to publish them because I spent so much time editing them and trying to make it the best of the best for you guys!
I think this is perhaps the best Fashion shoot I've done yet, lots of preparing and the crew was just awesome! Seriously, I've been going through a hard time and spending that day shooting with amazing fashionable people was awesome, just lifted my spirits a little and it means the world to me.

I felt wanted, and I haven't felt important or wanted in a while. So it felt good to be needed for a project where everyone creates something beautiful and I put it all together.

So thanks to Jessica, who is the Creative Director from The Black Sheep Fashion to give me this opportunity because honestly, it just means a lot! A lot more than you can even imagine!

A part from that, I just accomplished week 2 of 4 of exam session. ALMOST DONE GUYS! I honestly can't wait because it's draining me out and I can't wait to be able to focus on personal projects to content myself.

One thing many of my teachers have taught me is to keep doing personal photoshoots because if you just focus on contract work, you will lose your passion of photography and it won't be as much, and I know what he means because with all these exams I haven't had a time to focus on my personal projects and it will feel good during the holidays to just have fun with my camera instead of working on  homework.


So a part from that, this week has been hectic, I also managed to fit in my favourite movie: Lilo and Stitch. 
Ok yeah I know a kid movie, but watching it this week really made me realize why I love it so much. It represents me. I can relate myself to Lilo as being the loner that doesn't really have any friends, no one invites to things and that craves attention… 
Again, I am going through a depression and I realize that the closest friends I thought I had aren't fully there.. And I try contacting back but no one really wants to hang so I kind of wait at home, waiting for someone to perhaps want me in a way. So I can feel important and wanted again.

Lilo adopts Stitch, because she is alone and is sad. As to I who just adopted my little Isaac from a shelter…

It's funny how some movies can relate to you perfectly, it's just like songs. It's fun to always find a song that relates to you, you listen to it over and over and it makes you feel good.

I thought I might share this, not because I want you to feel sad for me, on the contrary, I just need to let it out. Because right now on this Friday night I feel alone and I need someone to talk to, and because no one is here, why not write a blog and let it out, it feels better when you express yourself. 
And after all, I am an artist.

Enjoy,

Holiday vibe

Hey guys!!

Well I hope you all had a good weekend! Over in MTL it was FREEZING! I thought I would be able to go snowboarding again this weekend but it felt like -100 outside so I contended myself to stay home with my cat and boyfriend to just well… Relax!

Oh yeah I got my little M. Minou back Saturday and he is doing great! He still has medication but he's eating and being a cat again, or so I should say dog again! I have come to believe that Isaac is a dog inside a cats body! Umm yes! Because he follows me absolutely everywhere, and whenever I'm in the kitchen (literally every time) He miaows insanely because he wants food. and Saturday night when I made fresh xmas cookies for dessert he was begging to have some.. 
And he is very affectionate, which I can't complain because that's what I wanted, but when you think of it, cats are usually the kind of pet that needs alone time. But not THIS ONE!


Yes, I am slowly becoming a crazy cat lady… Sshhh, it's okay I mean great people in this world are crazy cat ladies! Like… Well Grace! (The Vogue artistic director) DUH! In case you didn't know.


So anyways a part from that I am now in exam time. (I would say exam week but sadly it's not the case considering my exams are on a period of 3 weeks) But to be honest, I'm loving it! Because that's the fun part of studying your passion! The exams become fun and challenging! Every day we have a new photo to deliver and it's so much fun spending time creating your photo and then spending the day in the studio doing your photo and then ending the day with your creation in which you are so proud! 
Last week I had me ''body'' project, in which I had to photograph a body part.
So I decided to base myself with legs, and had my mother come in as a model and my concept was Ballerina, so she had ballerina shoes and she was dancing away as I was photographing her beautiful legs! It was so much fun, and the results show it!

Then I had my natural light portrait exam in which I got to reconnect with an old friend back in grade school which was cool! I got to have a 2 hour photo session and came out with a beautiful portrait in which I had to print out and then we hung it at school to see everyones portraits!

Now this week I am also very excited because Wednesday I have my commercial portrait exam 1 (there are two) and then I have a object exam 1(there are 2 also) So that will be quite fun also!

So a part from that things are quite busy for me, the holidays are soon arriving, my christmas holiday vacation starts on Dec 13, so I'm quite excited to finish and focus a little bit on myself, relaxing and trying to cure my depression. 
Besides, the holidays are such happy times in life that I am excited to be into the christmas spirit! 
Well… I think my christmas spirit started saturday because I wrapped most of my gifts, and now all I need to get is my grandmothers gift, and oh my god I have no clue what to get her. 

But hey, I still have a month right?! :P I like to get all my gifts before December because it's less busy… I even got my little Isaac little christmas gifts for his stocking! (oh my god, I am a crazy cat lady!)

So anyways to this, I hope you all have a great week! And hey! If anyone is interested in family portraits for the holidays, I am a great photographer! Hint* Hint*
Message me if interested and we can plan a fun holiday shoot!

Enjoy, xo

Long time no talk!

Hey guys!!

Okay so it has been a while, what like 2 weeks or so since my last blog?!

I guess you can thank exam week that has been excruciating because I've been running around, stressing out on creating concepts after concepts for my different exams and it is not over yet! So exam week is actually like exam month! My calendar is booked with studying and getting ready for all these projects and stress right now is at a high level.

But then again it's quite exciting because I have never been more creative in my whole life! There are so many concepts for exams I need to accomplish that I have no choice but to keep looking for inspiration images and finding new concepts and now that I have all my concepts I just want to shoot shoot shoot! 

IT'S INSANE! But it's awesome at the same time! 
It's like.. Fashion week, where everything happens at once, and it's incredibly tiring but incredibly exciting at the same time! 

Speaking of. I need 4 more models for December 4th so if anyone is interested message me and we can arrange that! 

Now other than that I also had a fashion photoshoot with the Black Sheep Fashion again at the beginning of the month! This time we shot in the studio and let me just tell you it was awesome!
We collaborated with Bang Couture to shoot their coats and oh my god they are really nice coats! Not to mention our beautiful model who wore them so perfectly! We also collaborated with Joe Fresh for the jewelry and Town shoes for the shoes!

It was a good day of studio work and a lot of fun, I also invited my friend who does videos to shoot a promo video of me and it was really cool to experience that also!

Like you guys might know, I am going through a depression and going back into the studio and shooting what I love the most and being with incredible people just uplifted my heart a bit and made me feel like before!

Also, in case you didn't know I adopted a cat from the SPCA! The sad thing is that he fell sick and I had to bring him back and now he is in hospitalization.. Grr. But the vet told me it is normal for shelter cats to get sick when they get adopted because they get stressed out in the beginning, but good news is that he is doing great! I have visited him a couple of times (I'm going today) and he should be able to come home sometime this week! Which will be great! 

Having an animal with me I think will just help me feel less lonely and make me feel more wanted in the way of taking care of a living thing. 
Plus he is so soft and cuddly! 

So to this, I can not post the photos just yet from the Black Sheep Fashion (I will be able to publish them on Nov. 30th) So until them here is a picture of Isaac, my new little adopted friend!

Enjoy, xo

Long ride to happiness

Hey dudes!

Or I should probably say Happy Halloween! Wooooohoo scarrrrrrrry! Ok well I guess it's okay for me to be scared of being alone in my apartment tonight.

EXCUSE.

But hey I hope you're all having a great night, I'm sadly not celebrating... Well, it's rainy and I had a ruff day and I'm still feeling kind of sick so I guess I will just have to celebrate it this weekend! 
My costume? The Great Gatsby theme! Oh yeah! I look awesome! 

But anyways, a part from that I wanted to write a blog because I had some emotions come out of me all throughout the day and nothing feels better than talking to a dear friend to let it all out. (Legit, I went for dinner with a friend tonight and we talked. ) 
I've been going through ruff patches in my emotional life, going through a little depression from all the stress, and such in my life and it has been kept a secret for a while now. I've been having a lot of ups and downs and today it was a big down down down. 

I feel as if it is important for me to tell you guys because everyone goes through a ruff patch like that and I want you guys to know it's okay, and that you're not alone.

I felt as if I was alone... Even if I have parents and a boyfriend, and friends, I haven't had the opportunity of having a moment where someone could just listen to me and kind of understand and help me a little until tonight. 

I went to dinner with a friend and we talked and it felt really good to let it all out. When we go through ruff patches, communicating with people is the best thing to do. We can't keep it in you, but it's also to communicate to someone who can understand and kind of feel for you.

I think that the biggest problem with people going through depression is that we isolate ourselves and don't talk to everyone, and then when we try to talk to someone we feel bad about talking and we get the impression that no one wants to hear your problems and then you just feel..
Well, you feel suffocated.

And then there's psychologist, but then it takes so long before finding the right one, and even when you have the chance to go, there's still something missing.

I know there's something missing, that's why I'm not feeling right. Perhaps it's the absence of loved ones, or the absence of an animal because I always lived with one.

Falling into depression is so easy and it's getting out the worst part. And it can take a while! 
So the best thing to do, is hang out with the people you love and who love you the most, go out, force yourself to go out, talk it all out with close friends and start thinking positive.

It's a lot of work, and it will take a while to get better, but just imagine how amazing you will feel when you free yourself?!

Snowboarding season is approaching, and as you might know I love snowboarding so hopefully it will help me a lot! 
For now, I just try to be as positive, and work on my photos and try and get contracts and get my name out. 

Also, as a Halloween present to you all, here are some photos I took from the Autumn shoot I did with the Black Sheep Fashion! I really hope you like them, I'm so proud of myself really, and next saturday I will be collaborating with them again! So I'm quite excited for that!!

Enjoy, and be happy! xo 

The most fashionable week in Canada!

WELL GOOD THURSDAY NIGHT EVERYONE!

As you noticed on my FB page, I have posted the photos from Toronto Fashion Week (Ok so the Monday and Tuesdays shows) so that technically means I finally managed to get off Montreal and on a plane to Toronto! HOURRAAAAY!

But I didin't manage to get on a plane Sunday, no there were 60 standby passengers and then I decided to just give up and try the next morning, and as I was getting my checked bag out they lost my suitcase... oh well, it can't really be much worse.

So yes the next morning I got on a plane and was off to the most fashionable week in Canada!
And let me just tell you it was amazing!

Just sitting watching a runway show gives me the thrills just makes me fall harder in love with the world of fashion. And I would just love to thank the Black Sheep Fashion for giving me that opportunity!

Oh and did I mention I was sitting 2nd row right behind Elle Canada?! Sadly I didin't man up to go talk to them but it was still really cool! I guess after a little depressing moment you get a happy opportunity that comes by and gives you a little push.
And being there just gave me an extra push to make me pursue my dream of fashion photography.

So to that, what have caught my eye during those two days? Well, I find the Monday night shows were great although there was a lot of black and white. I love black and white, but for a spring 2014 collection I was expecting a little more colour but no fear! Because the show that caught my eye was the Laura Siegel show in which there were HUGE POPS OF COLOUR! And made my eyes grow bigger than my stomach(you know what I mean) kind of way.

I found out those round hippie style glasses are coming back, I always loved the style but sadly they REALLY don't look good on me so I think I will pass on that note.

I was kind of disappointed in the Travis Taddeo show because I found his collection was very nice but I found he was playing safe, and going with the trend everyone is going for (Cara Delevigne style). But hey there were a couple of the womens outfits I LOVED and would totally wear but I was expecting a little more from him.

And when you go to these events alone sometimes you can feel a little lonely and out of place but I met a lovely young lady who kind of took me in on Monday and made me feel somewhat a little more into my place and excited and less lonely.
She is also a blogger and I invite you to go check out her website: realliferunway.com it is a blog about affordable fashion trends and a whole bunch of other fashion things!

She also made me discover a designer who showed on the Monday night, Pink Tartan who is Joe Freshs wife! She designes pretty clothes a little more Haute then Joe but sooooo pretty! I especially loved her floral pattern dress and skirt which gave a little spring moment that night.

So I could totally just keep talking and talking about my two days in Toronto for hours but come one, I don't want to make any of you jealous :P JKS !

So I had a great time, but even if I am a little sad from missing the rest of the week, I am glad to be back home, to start planing up coming shoots and getting back to school!
And going to the gym! Ok so I did go workout in Toronto but I didin't do my 100% because I had to hurry my workout because my days were full with fashion events, BUT EVEN IF I AM SICK TODAY (yes, I have an ear infection, it really sucks but oh well live with it) I AM GOING! And I'm going to do a good workout, even if I'm going to probably die because I haven't done a decent workout in a week!

So wish me luck to that! And then it just feels good to be home and be with my dear boyfriend and relax!

So here are some photos from Toronto Fashion Week, you can see more on my FB page and I will soon post some up on my website, I'm actually going to be working a little bit on it today and try and change a few things, so I better get going!!!

Have a great day everyone!

Enjoy,