Or I should probably say Happy Halloween! Wooooohoo scarrrrrrrry! Ok well I guess it's okay for me to be scared of being alone in my apartment tonight.
EXCUSE.
But hey I hope you're all having a great night, I'm sadly not celebrating... Well, it's rainy and I had a ruff day and I'm still feeling kind of sick so I guess I will just have to celebrate it this weekend!
My costume? The Great Gatsby theme! Oh yeah! I look awesome!
But anyways, a part from that I wanted to write a blog because I had some emotions come out of me all throughout the day and nothing feels better than talking to a dear friend to let it all out. (Legit, I went for dinner with a friend tonight and we talked. )
I've been going through ruff patches in my emotional life, going through a little depression from all the stress, and such in my life and it has been kept a secret for a while now. I've been having a lot of ups and downs and today it was a big down down down.
I feel as if it is important for me to tell you guys because everyone goes through a ruff patch like that and I want you guys to know it's okay, and that you're not alone.
I felt as if I was alone... Even if I have parents and a boyfriend, and friends, I haven't had the opportunity of having a moment where someone could just listen to me and kind of understand and help me a little until tonight.
I went to dinner with a friend and we talked and it felt really good to let it all out. When we go through ruff patches, communicating with people is the best thing to do. We can't keep it in you, but it's also to communicate to someone who can understand and kind of feel for you.
I think that the biggest problem with people going through depression is that we isolate ourselves and don't talk to everyone, and then when we try to talk to someone we feel bad about talking and we get the impression that no one wants to hear your problems and then you just feel..
Well, you feel suffocated.
And then there's psychologist, but then it takes so long before finding the right one, and even when you have the chance to go, there's still something missing.
I know there's something missing, that's why I'm not feeling right. Perhaps it's the absence of loved ones, or the absence of an animal because I always lived with one.
Falling into depression is so easy and it's getting out the worst part. And it can take a while!
So the best thing to do, is hang out with the people you love and who love you the most, go out, force yourself to go out, talk it all out with close friends and start thinking positive.
It's a lot of work, and it will take a while to get better, but just imagine how amazing you will feel when you free yourself?!
Snowboarding season is approaching, and as you might know I love snowboarding so hopefully it will help me a lot!
For now, I just try to be as positive, and work on my photos and try and get contracts and get my name out.
Also, as a Halloween present to you all, here are some photos I took from the Autumn shoot I did with the Black Sheep Fashion! I really hope you like them, I'm so proud of myself really, and next saturday I will be collaborating with them again! So I'm quite excited for that!!
Enjoy, and be happy! xo
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