Second chance

Hey guys,

I think I fell in love.

With a HORSE! Hahaha, ok well to be honest my friend took me to her barn the other day to show me the new horse she purchased.

As we got there she told me about this stallion who was found in a disgusting barn who was left to die. He was stuck in a stall, in the dark with no food and such for as long as ever!

They picked the poor horse up and brought him to this barn and I saw him. He was disgusting, skinny as a twig, you can see he had worms inside him, and he has a huge bump on his head.

He is a stallion, and usually stallions are crazy and have a very bad temperament. This one was so weak he couldn't even understand what a real stallion is suppose to be like. In a matter in fact he couldn't even understand how to be a horse again!

I felt for him, I was kissing him on the cheeks and petting him and making him feel loved, he was nudging me and trying to understand the feeling of being loved by someone.

It hurt, I looked in his eyes and felt pain, knowing how this poor animal has been left like this.

Atleast now his life could shine a little more.

I'm going to try and save it, I actually talked to the owner and a vet. I'm going to get him looked after and see what the vet says. Clearly he needs some medical attention, and he needs to be castrated. The only thing I'm kind of worried about is his bump. 

It looks like cancer. I'm scared. Hopefully it's not though. But if I can get him fixed up, I will try and buy him and move him to my friends barn. 

I'm well aware that I might not be able to ride him, and that this may be ridiculous and crazy. But I feel like this was a sign. I haven't been feeling well lately I've been completly lost. I need something to make me proud of, to feel like I own something as precious and that I'm saving something I really want.

It's hard to explain, but all I can say is I think this will be good for me. 

Here are some photos of my friend riding this crazy little beast of a pony haha, enjoy,

Refreshingly new

Hey dudes and dudettes!

I'm having a terrific weekend so far hope it's all the same for you guys! Last night I celebrated my cousins Bday party at this bar in Sainte-Thérèse and it was kareoke night... Hmmm, I guess after a few shots of tequila I was able to sing Three little birds by the greatest Bob Marley! All I can say is: What a night! It was so much fun really! It's awesome to be able to spend time with your family and friends celebrating something awesome! I got great shots of the whole party and saddly had to leave after my last song: Fast Car by Tracy Chapman.

Nights like those make me so happy and alive because when you feel like everything is just slowing down and you feel like you're not going anywhere, just a simple event can help replenish your soul and make your world worth while!

Today I had a very tiring day considering the wild night I had! Went mountain biking, and then out to take some sick shots of longboarders in Saint-Sauveur. It was really cool cause it was my first time being a photographer for that kind of board sport. I really enjoyed it cause it was different then skateboarding or snowboarding! It was like a little refreshing moment, which was really rewarding because I got some really nice photographs!

Once again, the art of ''trying something new'' comes back! Hahahaha! Anyways, here are some pictures I took today at my longboarding session! Hope you guys enjoy and once again all the other pics will be on my FB page!

Destiny: decides your life

Hey dudes!

So the other day, my friend brought me to her barn to visit her horse.

Firstly, just so that you know my passion was horses, and I use to compete and I had the best bond ever with my horse named Duster.

So as we get there I have this weird little feeling inside me. A kind of feeling that all my old equine memories came back suddenly. I walked around snapping some shots around the paddock and pasture and just thought to myself how much I missed horseback riding.

It has been around a year now that I have quit riding, but I guess it is the type of passion that will always come back and somewhat haunt you forever. Why haunt? Because every day I wake up to a picture of me and Duster jumping in a competition and then I wonder to myself what if I didin't quit... Where would I be right now? Because a part of me regrets desperatly to have quit this amazing sport and then another part of me says it's too late to go back and redo everything.

Just watching my friend ride her horse, made me happy and sad. Because I miss having an amazing bond with my man, and having to go to the barn everyday and getting up early for competitions and coming home with a bunch of ribbons all excited for the next one! I guess what I miss the most about it was that I felt important for once. Usually I would be blending in the crowd and no one really notices me, but for once when I would be out there in the ring, people would notice me and I could shine for once. 

But for now all I can really do is dream about my equine dreams, and just move forward and accept the fact that I'm probably never going to compete again hahaha! Or even jump again! I guess what I learned is that life is really unexpected. For example I always thought I would do something in the equine world, live my life with horses, but instead an unexpected event happened and I found myself shooting snowboarders and skateboarders! It's not terrible mind you snowboarding will always be a part of me, and waking up on cold snowy mornings getting ready to go shred the mountain will forever be the best feeling ever, but it's funny how life magically showed me a new passion and a new life.

So you have to be open to yourself and what life brings to you. Because Life plays with destiny and how you are going to end up, so you can't try and fight against it because destiny is going to win, and just letting it win in the beginning will make you happier than trying to fight it and realize how stupid you were for trying to fight it!

Anyways, here are some pictures at my friends barn, enjoy :)

Let go of the past and on to the present.

Hey guys!

So here in Montreal we had the best long weekend ever! Sunny and hot allllll weekend! Tuesday I went to Toronto for the day and woke up to rain and drizzly icky weather. As soon as my plane landed in YYZ, I looked out and it was sunny sunny sunny and crazy hot!

I guess no rainy day for me hahaha, I chase for the good weather!

Anyways we went to the Toronto Zoo! It was sooo cool! Never really been there, and it was amazing. People tend to think that zoos are for little kids and it's boring for older kids and adults but it's not! People of all ages go there to spend a day, visit the animals, get to spend time with family or friends (even loved ones) and it's great!

It felt good to leave Montreal for a day, so that I can breathe and relax. Things were getting overwhelming and I was feeling a little down, and had to get out and free myself for a day. People say that running away from things doesn't work and you need to face them in order to feel better... But there are some things you just can't seem to face and really the best choice is to just run away. So I ran away for a day and it felt really good. I got to think and realize that I can't go back in the past but only move forward. If some things in the past come back in my future, well then I guess destiny decided that it should come back. But for now I must content myself in living in the present, because it will only hurt more to stay in reverse instead of moving ahead.

I probably learned all of this from my father, he's the best. Whenever I feel down I know I can just call him and he manages to shine a little light through my hard times. It sucks that we live far but oh well, it's life and we can't do anything about it! I'm just happy to have him as my father because he is the best! I don't know if you are reading this dad, but thanks so much for being there for me! I love you so much!

Anyhow like I said I spent the day at the zoo so here are some photographs I took

Enjoy,

Take me out to a ball game!

Hey guys!

So how was your weekend? 

My was great! Sunny, hot, and nice! Yesterday I was out in Montreal and today I worked! Haha okay work was cool, and I finished at 5 and went directly to this baseball game where my friend asked me to take pictures for!

It was awesome! It was my first baseball shoot and as I get there with my friend I sit down and realize: oh god. How am I going to take pictures, theres fences everywhere! 

So at first I was kind of nervous because I honestly had no clue how to take good pictures with a stupid fence and tried many ways to try and get a good shot.

Luckily, I finally decided to just get as close to the fence as possible and shoot between the holes of the fence! AND IT KIND OF WORKED!
At least , here are some pictures I took through the fence hahaha, they aren't that bad to be honest! I'm really suprised!

I've always been a fan of baseball, wich made it more fun to shoot. Sure I was young and my grandma use to make me watch EVERY Jays game and it got a little annoying but in the same way it was nice because I got to be with her and watch something that she loves to watch. Over the years (okay perhaps last summer) I really got into it, and actually enjoyed going to see my friends games, and understanding how the game really works! Sure it's different than skateboarding and all the sports I'm more use to being around but it is an amazing sport!

So anyways enjoy, remember this is my first shoot and it was through fence holes so don't be too judgamental hahahahaha !

On my horizon.

Hey dudes!

Summer is finally here! YAY!! It's so hot and sunny out and I'm having a blast!!
I've been out a lot, with friends, taking pictures and working and I've been full of positive thoughts lately and I think it's because of the weather! Okay, well I've been meditating and acting a lot more zen these days!
Obviously there are days where things are a little on the low side and you feel kind of blue, but I've been so busy and my friends have been there for me to keep me occupied so that I think about having fun! And I wanted to thank all of my friends for being there for me seriously!

Now lets talk about photography! I just read an article about Lara Jade (my favorite photographer) and it made me want to start some portrait shots and maybe get into the fashion field of photography.

I really love taking action shots such as snowboarding and skateboarding but to be able to make a career in photography you need to touch everything! Fashion, sports, nature etc.

So this summer I'm going to try and focus on all of those fields as much as possible.

One of my dreams as a photographer would be to work for Roxy or Billabong as a fashion photographer as much as a action photographer (the Roxy surf/snowboarding team etc.)

So today I took a little time on my side to take some pictures of my friend who is rather beautiful and photogenic to start my portrait portfolio! Pictures turned out great!

Enjoy,

Just breathe.

Hey guys, 

it's late I know, I can't fall asleep there is so much on my mind.

You know that feeling when you want to sleep cause you're so tired but you have something on your mind and you try to like think of something else but it always comes back. Then you roll in bed, turn on your cell hoping someone would text or call you, saddly know one has you go on the internet and somewhat regret going on because you find something you didin't want to see and now you know you won't sleep?

Ok. Breathe in and out.... in and out. Haha sorry for blasting this like that but holy molly rocky my heart feels like a big swollen piece of something stuck right inside me.

Feeling like this annoys the crap out of me because I'm such a happy person and sociable and lately I've been all zen and confident but I guess I still haven't had to chance to actually sit down and trying to figure out who I really am. I think no one really sat down and thought of who they really are.

It's one of those questions you can't answer inless you are a 100% sure who you are.

So who am I?

For now, I guess I can respond by being an active sociable crazy girl who wants to become a professional photographer, that loves snowboarding and trying new things.

I'm unique, one in a million no one can be me.

That's who I am, and who knows... Perhaps next year I will have a new vision on who I am.

I really needed to blow off some steam hahahaha! Everyone needs it, either it's sports, listenning to music.... I guess for me it's writting a blogg!

It's just, I changed so much this past month, and I wanted to show to a certain someone I did change and that I'm great! But that person I guess doesn't want to. He doesn't really care, and it hurts in a way cause that distinct person meant so much to me... 

But I need to keep my chin up, and not let that someone bring me down because life isin't worth being sad and sorry for yourself. I guess he's the one loosing out! :P Typicall line a father would tell his daughter!

This picture here is a self portrait of myself from yesterday.

Enjoy,

Exciting hot summery days await us !

Hey guys!!

So yesterday was a pretty exciting day! AND HOT! finally summer is here and we can walk around in shorts and tank tops having fun and catching sunburns!!
Ok maybe the sunburns and the mosquitos suck but honestly summer is the time of the year when everyone feels happier and there's more get togethers and such!

Which makes it worth writting about!

So there I was yesterday morning in Montreal at a conference about natural light portraits and was amazed and excited to start off with my portraits! 

Especially with summer arriving, it's the perfect time for natural light portraits! Basically any kind of portraits!

So I have this concept, that I won't tell just yet because it's kind of a secret but wait for it this summer it will be pretty interesting! 

Anyways, what was a lot of fun was yesterday me and my friends went to this skate event that my work organises every monday night at 7pm. It was my first time going and bringing my camera was the best part. I got to statch up in the half pipe take pictures of these awesome skaters and getting great shots!
It's that feeling when you get the perfect shot and you feel so proud of you and feel really confident about yourself!

Obviously I'm starting up and I have a low budget so not a lot of equipement but with the stuff I have I made last nights pictures look really good. So here are some pictures I took from last night,

Like I said previously in other bloggs the rest of the photos will be on my FB page : Alex C.D photography

Enjoy,