Hey guys!
I'm finally moved into my new apartment! Yes finally!
Alright well now you must ask, how is the apartment life?!
It's good, it feels good to be in your own space, have you're own place and do really whatever you want to do without having anyone bother.
The only thing is that it gets quite lonely. Like for instance today, I drove my friend back to his place and then got home and did some homework.
After homework I had lunch and kind of walked around in my apartment not really knowing what to do.
Hmmm . Maybe it would be a little more entertaining if I had a TV. HAHAHA YES I DON'T HAVE A TV. But it's weird because I normally never watch TV, only on rare occasions or to just watch a movie, yet ever since I've moved in I have a sudden urge to watch TV.
Oh well I told myself during boxing week I will go out and buy a TV to compliment my newly furnished living room so I won't have to write a blogg on how I wish I owned a TV.
So instead of that I read, I took a nap, cleaned and just had a me day. Felt good because I've been so busy lately I haven't had the time to just lay there and relax. So I guess today was a day well deserved!
Another thing I realized when moving into my new place is that now I can focus more on photography. Now I have the time to read, to inform myself on different technics and get back into serious business.
It just proves to what extent I need to pursue my dream and focus on what I really want to do.
These past weeks I've been staling but now that I'm also closer to the city I can really take fashion photography and street photography to the limit.
I've also came to realize that Montreal isn't such a bad place to live in! ( NO OFFENCE TO ANYONE) Yes the drivers are quite stressful and well I don't feel too integrated with the french side of Quebec but it is a nice place and let's just say I love walking in Vieux Port taking pictures, stopping for coffee and analysing people. It seems unreal sometimes, like a dream.
Soon I'm hoping to go downtown sometime to just walk around and take some pictures and just enjoy one of Quebec's many cities.
Now speaking of photography, yesterday I shot my friend in Laval for a ''Rocky kind of style shoot''. It was sooooo much fun because she is wild and daring! I was slowly getting my camera ready, I look up and see her climbing stuff acting crazy! Which is good! Not to mention she has a beautiful figure which is every photographers dream to photograph.
We need models who move, who aren't scared and who look gorgeous in every shot.
She was perfect, I loved her willingness in this whole project and it made me excited to develop the photographs and put them online.
Here are some photos from the shoot,
Enjoy,
Hey dudes!
Okay so yesterday I wanted to blogg but we had some intense storm and my power went out.
Yes I do have a laptop so basically it's wireless BUT my internet is connected via electricity which means no internet for me!
Which means no going on blogster writing a blogg about the photos I took last night.
WELL NO FEAR INTERNET IS NOW WORKING AND I CAN WRITE A BLOGG!
Basically were half way into December and I'm still not in the christmas mood. Maybe because things have been bothering me lately but I'm moving into my apartment tomorrow and I'm hoping once this huge step becomes reality things will go a lot better and then I could try and get into the holiday spirit.
Oh, BTW I will be getting an Iphone this week so watch out guys!
Yes I have come to conclusion that Blackberrys really do suck, I have brought mine 7x in repairs and it's still breaking and it gets FRUSTRATING.
Well... Also they don't have instagram XD yes I had to add that into my comments because it's probably the best app Iphone has.
Anyways were going way far from my point is, I hope everyone is spending a great great December and is getting into the holiday spirit......At least I hope.
So yesterday was not my day.. Like at all. REALLY NOT. But it kind of brought thought to my head and made me realize things I wouldn't of suspected.
I still need time to think because I got badly hurt and I agree with the stupid saying ''Time will repair you'' and ''you will grow stronger'' ETC. I'm quotly (is that even a word) what my dad told me last night.
I hate that when you feel like crap and you have people trying to pet talk you into feeling better but it makes you mad and you know all this stuff already it's just in the moment you don't want to hear kind of thing!
But it does make sense so I guess I should put it out there because we do need time to digest every little thing that bothers us in life and then make the right decision on what's best for you.
So anyways, to top off my bad day there was a huge storm in which it took my half an hour to take the snow and the freezing rain that covered that snow on my car. Then I got late for class, then on my break I got a bad call with a certain someone yelling and being a jerk, then I got my exam which I failed, then go to my next class, watch a intense creepy crappy scary intense x10000 movie that made me feel all weird, then receiving another failed exam, then going to dinner with a certain someone who basically you don't want to have dinner with and then feeling like shit not knowing what to do because of some event that occurred the night before.
Oh and then home in my bed taking 2 extra strong advils and falling asleep.
WINNER.
hahah . What I'm trying to say is that no matter what we go through, things happen for a reason. Either you find who your true friends are, either you find out you're not in love with your significant other, either you realize who you are. ETC ETC. The list goes on and on but in my head I can't really think right now.
It's just we all have bad days, but in the end it's that one person who takes that bad day and turns it into good, and for this time it's my sweet sweet father. Yes he wasn't there physically but he was there on the phone while I cried and told him all the crappy things that happened today and yet he soothed me and told me things will get better.
Really who would of thought your own father would give the best solutions!
He told me to just relax and think.... He gave me his opinion and things I should do and in the end he just told me to go back home and just take it easy, so I did!
I got home and yes there was a huge ugly storm but oh my goodness the trees were all iced up and the darkness outside gave me this emotional love.
I ran outside with my camera and tried to capture my emotion.
It worked perfectly and this is the picture that represents me the most: Dark dark, sad, nervous, betrayed, tired. Yet with a light of beauty saying things will get better and that with time things will heal and that there's always a light after the storm.
Enjoy,
Hey dudes!
Hope you had a great weekend, I sure did!
We all need those weekends when you do nothing at all, and quite frankly I deserved it because I've been going non stop with either photography and work.
And lets just say getting away from some of my problems I'm facing home just felt good.
And the best part is that it was snoooowing! The whole weekend, it was amazing! Sadly the weekend ended and I must go back to the weekly routine.
There's nothing wrong about going back to that tho I would of taken a couple of extra days doing nothing at all far from the world to just chill like a little villain.
But then again I would probably feel super lazy and become fat, which isn't really in my plans for this month.
Okay so I'm babbling on and on about really stupid things so I just wanted to say thanks to all those people who are behind me in all my situations and more precisely the people who are supporting me in photography.
I find people don't get enough credit for what they do, and in the end you loose friendship because you can't take a moment to realize what certain people are doing for you and to thank them.
So to all those people out there that are supporting me in my dream career, well thanks for being there because without you I probably wouldn't go too far.
I would like to thank MSSI, Ride Shakedown, DC, O'neil, Camp of Champions, PRFO, AXIS for letting me be a part of your team as a photographer, supporting me and cheering me on to perfection!
I would LOVE to thank my friends for being a part of my life, helping me through all theses bad moments and making me a stronger person.
And finally I would also LOVE to thank my father, dude you're the best seriously you better be reading this hahaha. I'm dead serious, any kid would be honoured to have you as a father you're a sick grey on a tray. ( snowboarding term for old man on a board)
So yeah , It's not a super long blogg, it's just I thought I would thank all of you guys for being AWESOME, cause you all are pretty sick people!
Enjoy,
Hey guys,
wow it's been a while since I've wrote a blogg! Sorry about that, it's just my life is so crazy right now holy molly rocky!
So lets start!
Now I believe there is some kind of god out there... Not necessarly God. or like Jesus (catholique or whatever kind of god) but in a god that kind of helps us live and watches out for us.
To me God isin't a person in particular but some kind of aura just going around chilling in different spots, chilling like a villain being cool and stuff. (okay for the adolescence slang!)
And because I believe in some sort of aura God, I believe he makes everything happen for a reason. For example my dog.
I got him so unexpectably yet we got attached so fast.
I also realized a couple of weeks of having him how much we ressembled. Were stubborn, unwanted, scared but strong.
He is part wolf, as to I like to believe I am also. (my native animal, a sociable pack leader.) As it is also my favorite animal.
I would like to believe that God brought us together because we are two broken souls, and we reunite to fix each other be one good one.
Cause truly only owner and dog can really see the relationship, no one around can see how much we bond. It's special, I don't know if you already had a dog and bonded really well but if you do you know what I'm talking about.
If not I suggest you try getting a dog one day to live that experience because I swear it's the best experience ever.
That moment when you just pour your tears and he just sits next to you cuddling you and knowing you are in pain.
Or that moment when you go running together and play together and you catch his stare right in your eyes and you know he's there forever.
It's magic. Pure magic, So I would like to thank god for bringing this to my life.
Because I'm hurting so deeply inside that just having him near me gives me just enough strengh to get me by the day.
Hey guys,
So I don't know if you've ever been through a bunch of ruff times and that you just get tired and you just want to quit...
I mean I've been going through sooooo many things during a past few years that I've been getting terribly tired of supporting this.
You feel so low at times that you can't even bare living. It hurts. You get so hurt inside that you can't possibly think anything can hurt you more and then paff. Something happens that makes the bad things worse.
Trust me I know what it feels like because I've been going through that dilemma many times and I'm officially in one now. I guess in a way it proves how strong I am because I've been getting past bad incidents before but it just gets tiring. I start to feel weak and unwilling to continue.
So earlier tonight I was on my bed taking pictures of my dog when I just survived a bad incident a few minutes before. That's when I told myself I need to write a blogg about it.
I need to reach out to everyone out there who might be living in the same situation as me. I just want to make sure everyone is good and strong as I am.
I decided to write this blogg to the people who have been going through ruff times just to explain to them to never give up.
Life can suck so badly at times, but I herd that life gives you many more positive times than negative moments so you have to bare with me and believe that you will have a break and that life will give you those magical moments soon.
We might be very unlucky now, but wait and see in a couple of years we will be stronger than anyone else and we will conquer this world with our head held high and have happiness overwhelm us.
I like to believe that right now I'm stuck in a dark tunnel and that one day I will be able to find a way out where the bright light shines. We just give up.
And when you think everything is coming down to an end just think about all the people who love and care about you.
Either it's family, friends a significant other.. You have people who love you.
And don't say you don't cause that's absurd!
My favourite quote from a movie me and my best friend use to watch over and over again really helps relate this situation:
''You have to stay alive to see how the story ends.''
I like to tell myself this quote every time I feel a little low because it's true. Our story never ends. You have to keep living until the real story ends. The unexpected fairy tale end. Not the incredibly horrible sad ending.
Life's not worth getting all down trust me, cause the more you feel sorry for yourself the more you just want to give up and feel hollow.
HOLLOW IS NOT GOOD. In less you feel like a hollow chocolate... Cause chocolates are happy, sweet and awesome ;)
What I'm trying to say is that you must never give up. I know people tell this all the time and it gets old but it's so true. It's just not worth it, you have so much to live for and like I said, there's always a light at the end of a tunnel so no matter how bad a situation gets you will be able to get out of it 10x stronger and feel happy and awesome about it.
So just to let you know that you're not alone in this, so many people go through bad moments in life trust me I've been through a lot but I'm never going to give up. God gave me all these issues because he knows I can handle them and that I'm strong enough to get over them. So all I can say is life can kiss my butt cause I ain't going NO WHERE.
enjoy,
Hey dudes!
Well I hope everyone is doing good because I'm feeling great!
why?
CAUSE TODAY WAS THE OPENING DAY AT MONT SAINT-SAUVEUR! Which means the snowboarding season just started and my amazing photography career in the domaine starts up again!
So stoked getting at the hill early, getting my camera ready and just so excited seeing people show up to go shred.
I know many people don't like the snow, winter etc. but seriously go snowboard or ski and trust me you will learn to love winter!
I'm super stoked on the wonderful opportunity MSSI is giving me to be a part of their team this year as one of their photographers!
It's going to be awesome and today was a great day to start taking pictures and get to know the personnel around the mountain!
Obviously after taking as many frames I could I went boarding with some friends and OBVIOUSLY I fell on my head while I tried doing something over a little bump jump thing....
Yeah alright, lets not get into that but if you saw me fail like that you would of laughed your butt off because everyone who saw it happen did!
But I guess it was the first day so it's kind of normal to be a little sucky on the board but wait and see... mouahahhahahah!
I will be like a mix of Seb Toots, Scotty Lago and Erin Comstock! Awesome snowboarder everyone will want to be me ;) Ok no I'm kidding but it would be awesome!
Anyways, as you can see the season just started so to support me make sure to check out my FB page, and the MSSI website to check out some awesome photos I took!!
Enjoy,
Hey guys!!
Hope all is good this past week, it's been kind of drowsy lately over where I live and I'm kind of tired of it...
It's always raining and to be quite honest I love rain but when it rains everyday it gets kind of depressing and you start to feel weak in a way. But APPARENTLY the weather forecast says it's supposed to snow 10 to 15 cm this weekend.. So I'm a very gullible person, but over the weather network.... wellllll not so much! But for once I'm actually praying they're saying the truth because I really want it to snow!
I personally think the first snow is the best. The moment you go outside and see the first snowflakes drop from the sky, and you know winter is here. It makes me all excited and happy! I prance around like a little pony excited to see the grass disappear and to be able to go shred!
Okay so a little pony wouldn't be prancing around excited to see the grass disappear because they love grass so picture a little polar bear discovering snow... I guess.
This post isn't quite about snow though. I wrote one a couple of weeks ago so I guess you guys are kind of tired of me writing about snow. AGAIN.
No this post actually came to me last tuesday when I was out walking my dog in the forest. I randomly get thoughts built up in my head and I wait to actually write them out.. Don't ask why, I'm just really weird so whatever.
But I was thinking about memories. Memories memories memories.
It's those moments when you do something and it makes you remember something in the past. For example when I was walking in the woods, I found this old abandoned house and it brought back a lot of memories from when I was younger with friends.
Alright not that long ago because I've only been here for what ... 2 years now? But still it seems far and blurred out anyways so I might as well say it was when I was younger..
Well technically I was younger because I'm older than 2 years ago.
ANYWAYS.
What I'm trying to get at is that we all have memories we want to keep forever, we all have memories we regret having and wished to never think of again, we get memories that scare us, and memories that make us sad.
We try telling ourselves the past is the past, you have to leave it behind, but you always have those memories in your head that will always come back even though sometimes you wish they didin't.
I guess the best you can do is cherish them (even though they are bad, because you learn from them).
For example a bad breakup. It will become a bad memory but you learn from it. You tell yourself how horrible it was and how you will never go back and do those mistakes again.
And well for the good ones, you learn about yourself and you make yourself happy and everyone needs happiness in their lives.
It makes you think really, it makes me feel somewhat better because whenever I get a bad memory, I think of a good one and it makes me feel better and I tell myself life is life.
But for some people, they will live in sorrow from the past. They will be forever hurt and will never be able to function like a normal person.
Sadly I know someone who has been upset for many years over the past and it's tearing her up. If only that one person can see the light and try and forget about the past and just see the future of things.
OR see those bad memories into something constructive and happy, then maybe she could relive in happiness and be able to live normally.
But sadly I don't think that's going to happen.
To conclude my blogg, yesterday I did a photo shoot of my friend with her boyfriend. It makes me happy to shoot couples from time to time because you can really feel their love and vibe. It seems more alive and from the shoot you can discover how they vibe together and it just makes the photographs more lively.
Yes they were quite shy on front of camera, but it was cute and I quite enjoyed it!
Enjoy,
